2004-11-20 22:16:22 ET|
Why should I be wasting air when someone else may breathe it? I always end up in the conclusion that really maybe no one will miss something of me... shit, Iím just saying that right now Iím feeling fucked up depressed as hell.
I was already very depressed yesterday and agreed to join a friend to a party thing, I went just for doing him the favor since he invited me and because heís probably the only person I could call friend, that I have talked more seriously; yeh, maybe heís my only friend at the moment. Obviously I did not had a good time at all, so I barely could concentrate me on trying to get drunk. I reached 6 beers and that was it for me. I went walking home at midnight say 30 or 40 blocks, I donít know. Then today the internet wasnít working well, but it is fixed now.
Oh, another problem thatís been shitting me lately is that Iím having breathing problems again. I few months I commented on this, and now itís happening again. I feel like either my lungs are too small or my nose too blocked or something. Itís a fucking pain. There are certain positions when Iím sit that I feel Iím suffocating and I have to stretch in many ways until I can firmly breathe well; and my nose, also feels so constipated. After somewhile I really hate breathing through my mouth.
Some one please throw me to the mud and walk over me.