2002-09-06 07:13:32 ET|
So , When I turned 17 I hit this black hole in my life...well a blackhole persay. I met a lot of new people.
I smoked a lot of pot. Listened to ICP, smoke cigarettes and my life stopped.
I was stuck at the age of 17 for about 3 years. Thats when I realized it. I m not a kid anymore. I have
to start taking on resposibilities. Move out becaome an adult. One problem. I have to catch up with
myself. Then I turned 21. That helped. I could actually do adult like things.
I still feel myself struggling to become an adult. Everyday I grow older the further behind I become.
I look at these "kids" that come into my store and shop. They look 13 and 14 years old, when some
of them are seniors in high school.
JUST SO YOU KNOW, THIS IS NOT A RANT ON HOW IM TOO OLD. I DON T WANT TO HEAR
ANYONE SAY YOUR AS OLD AS YOU FEEL, BLAH BLAH BLAH!
It makes me feel weird. I just got out of high school......FOUR YEARS AGO!!!
Ack! See, I still feel stuck. This is actually something I have been dealing with since I turned 20,
the I feel old thing. I know I m not old, but I am definately not a kid anymore. I have met some
interesting people in the last few months, very "cool" people and then I find out they are only 19 etc.
Its cause people my age are too tired to dress up anymore. Ugh I don t feel like writing anymore.
maybe I ll finish later when I feel remember what all I was going to say.
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