2009-03-30 22:37:05 ET

I seem to only write on here once every couple months, chronicling the major events (or what I think to be important events)in my life, although I feel like I just complain about nothing most of the time. Right as I'm finally happy with everything going on in my life my girlfriend tells me she's leaving Ohio to live in California by November.

I felt sick all day after she told me about this. Now I don't know if I should end it now while I'm not so attached (even though I already am, that's why its 4 am and I'm still up worrying about this)or stay together and see what happens. Every time something good happens to me it is quickly turned around. I think staying together is a terrible idea, but I feel like I want to be with her.

I'm really into this girl. Of course she is leaving. Its the tragic series of events I call my life. Maybe I just can't do relationships, it always seems that when I really care about someone something always ruins it. All I want is some god damn security.

I want what is best for her. And if she finds a good job on the other side of the country I'm totally supportive even if I have to lose someone else I care about.

2009-03-30 23:15:26 ET

that's a damn shame man, can you see yourself only getting more attached? I think that mixed with her soon to be gone is a bad combo..

by the way..

"a day without danzig is not a day worth living"

damn right!

2009-03-31 06:43:14 ET

Wow, that's such a long ways away. If it wasn't such a distance, I would say go for it. It you feel strongly about her or the relationship you should always give it a try. I find that if you don't try you'll always wonder what if. Plus, you never know how that person or that relationship could have altered you or made you into a better person.
Go with your heart. In all relationships use your heart not your mind. Your mind is a fickle thing, it gets confused. Your heart, your emotions...that's constant.

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