self pitty

Mort Et Magnifique 2006-04-24 17:50:11 ET I honestly do not know what's going on with me anymore... I'm beyond depressed and it all seems to center around my self-esteem. I know this sounds like pity so don't assume that I'm just trying to get sympathy... but I feel horrible, I feel like I look like, like, like something that needs to be banished to a far away land never to be looked at again. I think what bugs me the most is that I caught my boyfriend flirting with close to 20 girls on myspace. But if I'm so gorgeous, like he says I am...why do I NEVER, EVER even get a lude comment? Also...he was flirting with girls (this will sound shallow) that were less attractive than me...hard for me to think. And I STILL get no one hitting on me. WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?!

MattHolck 2006-04-24 17:53:17 ET ah you kneed attension

Mort Et Magnifique 2006-04-24 17:55:11 ET it's not attention i need...i don't know what it is...

Avant-Gardian-Angel 2006-04-24 18:48:50 ET you need not to need. *although a man who was faithful would be a start. feel damm-assed lucky your not in my situation. i've got an X-g/f that just won't let the *F* up on me - I try to be cool and let her know we are just friends! NOOOO benifits *thank you* She's offered -- I'm not gen into that. In fact she may even be reading this ... Booo ! I'm sure I'll hear about it. Get a guy who appriciates you , not REALLY nice guy -too nice or you'll get bored , but not enough of a B-hole guy that he's doing this. A decent guy somewhere in the middle. Or : as first sugg. = Zen Mistress/Master Will says: concentrate on not needing , at all--- and you'll start to see the things that matter most surface. WoW ! I think that's a record for me blabbering. I digress.....

Mort Et Magnifique 2006-04-24 18:52:37 ET I know...but when you've got absolutely no one giving you any positive reinforcememt (even if it's superficial) it really hurts! I don't expect a lot of pitty...but I fucking hurt.

MattHolck 2006-04-24 19:01:28 ET he prolly doesn't think you wANT A LUDE COMMENT

Mort Et Magnifique 2006-04-24 19:02:01 ET anything to make me feel like i'm not a sack of shit at this point. do i just sound totally stpuid?

MattHolck 2006-04-24 19:10:42 ET not at all been wonderring if that was a problem with my love recently and I'm totally in lust with anyone who plays Columbia

klemmy 2006-04-25 01:08:00 ET wait you have a myspace account? you are hot. guys are sometimes afraid to tell hot chicks that they are indeed, hot. I dunno why but sometimes us guys ar0e like that.

Mort Et Magnifique 2006-04-25 04:41:13 ET But why should I never get told? I mean, am I just that much of a superficial bitch?

MattHolck 2006-04-25 08:09:14 ET I'll tell a replica

klemmy 2006-04-25 09:26:22 ET you know, i dunno why some girls arent told they are hot. I think it has to do with a man's tastes in women. for example, one guy might only be into chicks with big booties, while another thinks big boobs are the way to go. i dunno if you are that superficial, and i can't speak for the other guys but i can say that think you're hot.

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