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| * shut me up-by-MINDLESS SELF INDULGENCE* | 2006-04-27 23:32:45 ET |
is this a bad sleeping pattern to have?
I dont go to bed until 4:30am...most times even 6am or later.
I usually wake up around 12 or 2, depending on when i have to work.
I go to work, come home around 12am, stay up until 6am again.
sometimes i even wake up around 9 or 10am.
I toss and turn alot.
i think there is something wrong with me.
i use to go to bed atleast by midnight, and then wake up around 10am or 12pm.
its wierd.
and i'm always bored.
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| *part of me-by-TOOL* | 2006-04-27 11:26:37 ET |
There is a 95% chance that I will be going home to Maryland, to celebrate my 21st b-day!!
This makes me sooo excited.
my dad and i are going to talk about it more tonight and figure out how i'm going to get up there and back.
i might have to greyhound it. its going to be 18 hours to get up there.
blah.
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| *my sweet shadow-by- IN FLAMES* | 2006-04-26 12:35:16 ET |
to feel that you have failed, is the shittiest feeling in the world.
if i dont get more hours at my job, i will have to move back to MD.
they only pay 5.25/hr here min. wage, and the cost of living is so much higher here.
back home there are more job oppurtunites now and they raised the min wage to 6.15/hr, and cost living is lower.
i barely have enough money for my taxi as is, and i feel like i'm just dragging my mom down with bills and all because i cant help her out as much as we thought.
shit, i thought moving was hard, thinking that you might have to move back is 10 x's worse.
i've never felt so.....disappointed in myself.
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| *evil in a closet-by- IN FLAMES* | 2006-04-26 10:56:13 ET |
this being off work 3 days in a row is shitty...actually 4 days i suppose. I dont go back to work until saturday.
i get paid next week though, on the 2nd....thats when the new tool cd comes out. I wish i had to extra cash to get it. I downloaded one of their new songs that leaked onto the net, Vicarious, its sweet, I cant wait to hear the rest of the album.
i'm sooo bored. i guess i'll do laundry later on tonight.
damnit, its raining again!
man, i have two guys i am quite fond of and one lives in cali and the other back home, damnit. Dan and Dick( thats just his nickname). lol. this is lame, all the great guys are out of my reach. I talk to both of them almost every night. Dick is not really looking for a girlfriend he says " whatever happens happens"but knows i have a thing for him, and i fucked up cause i couldnt bring myself to tell him til after i moved, but he had already figured it out.
and Dan, well i'm pretty fuckin sure he knows i like him, i mean we slept together a couple times and all before he went back to cali, and hes looking for a girlfriend, but also enjoying the single rockstar life. If i lived in cali, we'd probably be dating.
And i'm not doing a long distance relationship.
even though my one ex wasent all that far way, we were young and for the longest time had no car so we only seen each other on the weekends for the most part, and that sucked, just the long distance part, he was a good guy just the distance is hard on a relationsip. i did that for almost 4 years. I dont think i could handle only getting to see someone once every so many months.
this is lame.
now that i realize i am rambling, i'm just going to stop, while i'm ahead.
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| Vicarious-by-TOOL | 2006-04-25 11:26:37 ET |
so today is one of my days off, and its soo fuckin hot outside I'm going to be inside.
I was planning on going outside and doing yard work, but that will have to wait until later this evening, but the chances of it being cooler is slim to none.
I will be doing slave labor inside today. lol.
One of these days I will put pictures up of the beach, next time we go i will take some new pictures.
this is going to be a boring 3 days off work.
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