I'm still in hyndman at Katties. Last night Thomas and Ricky came up and stayed the night. We all walked around...Ricky Thomas and I did some fun stuff. We were at Ocean City and Oxy Drive last night. Thomas and I fell asleep cramed at the bottom of KTs bed while her and Ricky did..who knows what. We did go to sleep until like 5am. Adam brought Mary up to hang out with us. Oh I love her..she is soo much fun and makes me giggle. After that Thomas and I fell back asleep on the floor. Whitley came back and woke us all up. She brought me a gift. Her and her mom bought me a cloak for our coven meetings. And boy do I love it! Things seem to be like a rollercoaster with me lately. Thomas and I are not back together, we just hang out, its still fun. Its just odd, one day things are great and then the next day I'm sucked into my own self pity where I just want to crawl into a deep dark hole and die. I think I might need back on my meds. Thomas let KT and Whitley put make up on him today...oh my. After awhile Thomas went home. Then KT, Ricky, Whitley and I walked to Myke's house. We went to sheetz so I could get some cigarettes and then dropped Ricky off. Us girls came home and ate tacos that KTs dad made. I love Floyds tacos! They are the shit! Now I'm am sitting here typing this about to go back upstairs and smoke. I think I might play with my cloak cause I'm a dork like that. hahahah...♥ |
..to be happy. I was happy. And it went away. I use to be happy. I'm sure you all remember when I was happy. Why does he get to be happy?! We both went through the same thing! He gets to be madly deeply inlove happy and I get to be back where I was 4 years ago before I met him! Its not fair, I know...lifes not fair, but shit. This is fucking ridiculious! Now his new girlfriend has an account on here, it makes me sad. I mean its nice that he's happy, but when am I going to get mine. I did have it, when I was dating the other one, Thomas and I are still friends, but I still want to be more than friends. I really fell for him. I thought after AJ I would never feel for someone like that again, and then I start hanging out with Thomas, and boy did those feelings explode. I never thought I'd be the one to slip like that. I thought I'd become the heart breaker, but nope, I'm always the one that is the heart breakee. It sucks. I would like to date again. I really would, but it makes it hard when you have feelings for someone else. I'm sure thomas and I looked like complete opposites, he being the afro headed, hippie, communist and me being the rebellious, dyed-haired, tattooed, and peirced punk rocker. But we really werent all that different.I hate feeling like this. I hate having time to think about this shit. I need to something to take my mind off of all this......I need something........I want to be loved. |
So yea, I've been pretty busy lately. I got my lip pierced. Got my heart broken, I've been to warped tour, I've drank myself silly a couple of times, got beat with a huge fuckin paddle, Gone back into old habits, got back into the illgals, made new friends, met a band, and I seen the ocean for the first time..and let me tell you, I'm defintely IN LOVe with the ocean. My friend had her baby early so I spent a week in Baltimore @ Johns Hopkins with her. The baby at birth was 1lb 12oz. Hes now 2lbs 2oz. They took him off the ventilator yesterday and he is doing really good. I've been spending most of my time in Hyndman. I'm debating on moving with my mom to South Carolina or not. I love my friends here, but theres too much hurt here for me right now. I'm not one to usually run away from the problem, but I've went back to bad habits, and I feel the best thing I could do for myself right now is to move and try to start my life over. I dont know. It just sucks that things have some to this, that I'm in this position. |
Should it stay or should it go?? let me know... |
We leave tomorrow morning for Pittsburgh,PA. Warped tour is Monday, we will be heading back sometime tuesday! I'm so excited. We have a group of 15-20 people going and only 2 hotel rooms. This should be awesome! I need this little get away. Anyway, here is my bed head...... |
.....isn't it sexy!?...oh my....look at that big fuckin rock in my nose. Isn't that gross?...I lost my stud and had to use one of my friends earrings. I look like I beat down Christina Aguleria for that shit in my nose. Its my BLING BLING. Oh my I'm such a fuckin dork!| Jump to page: [Previous] 1 « 64 65 66 67 68 » 145 [Next] Back to Punk Kitten's page |