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2003-04-04 11:10:54 ET I went to Portland Organic Wrestling for the second time last night. Aside from my passing fear of having entrails land on me and having to witness a full frontal from Harvey Hardcock (dude! he was in drag and wrestled with no underwear on...it was not pretty) I had a great time. I am so sick of being depressed and depressing to be around. I really need something to perk up my mood. I hope the fact that spring is here will help. The weather will start to dry out, get warm and I will be able to get out for hikes, possibly around Forest Park for now. I hate being ultra cold sensitive. I start feeling very trapped by the weather half way through winter every year. And of course that feeling persists all the way till late April/early May. I'm am buying my ticket back to Michigan today so that hopefully I'll get a chance to visit my grandfather. I've been thinking about what I will do back east for a week and it hits me that I have maybe one friend to visit while I'm back, the rest of the people I'll be seeing will be family. I hate that I too shy and never made any close friends back in high school. I'm sure I still have acquaintances but far be it from me that I'll be looking them up after 7 years just to say "what's up?" I'm almost ready to take my doctor up on the prescription for antidepressants she was ready to write last month. Time to do some yard work and wait for the landlord to show up. meh... Oh I did have one small piece of happiness. It came while kicking out Jehovah's Witnesses out of the store for trying to give me a copy of Awake magazine to read while I had my morning tea and crousant. Johovah's Witness: "But what if I want to shop here?" Me: "It does not matter. You have just insulted me. So just go." JW: "But..." Me: "Now." (watching customer applauds) I guess they asked my coworkers down at the next store why I was so mean shortly before they were given the sign of the horns and told to get out. |
