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oah my.
i am balling my poor lil eyes out.
i just watched an extremely good epi of queer as folk.
and now i am suddenly slapped in the face and reminded of my once beloved JUSTIN > (ex-best friend)
oh i can't even come to the astonishment of the end.
its much too severe and unreal. i feel sick to my stomach almost. i mean i have no good friends here anymore, i used too, i have no really good friends any more period.
i have come into a shell these past couple years and i dont seem to let anyone in, of course it IS THE DRUGS. i mean thats obvious...but that part of my life is over (at leats for the moent)
but it has encompassed him and he thinks i am this evil whore and wants nothing to do with me....we once beleived that we were soul mates...shit from the first time we met we fell in love with each other...something about us just clicked...and now i mean nothing to him...and i can't understand or get over it.
will it be the same once he quits the lifestyle that has made him emotionally disabled.
or will he let his mind give in completely and do until it kills him.
oh i cannot even deal with this right now.
i am goin to breakdown.
GOODNIGHT CRUEL WORLD.
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