2004-03-04 12:00:52 ET

I wish I wasn't so selfish. A situation occurred last night where I am now involved as a mediator in a runaway case. This instance has presented itself to me as a place where I can help more than just Chrissy. There is no one the younger girls in my church have to talk to. The question has been posed if I would like to make myself available to that fill that void. This isn't really more than being open to being a sounding bored or someone to help out in difficult spots. All I can think about is how busy I am with School and work. Maybe it's fear of responsibility that has me pulling out excuses. I am not sure I can always figure out the right answer, yet there isn't anyone else even offering to try. Besides Chrissy there are two others that call me for help with less than perfect situations. It seems that whether or not I feel capable, I am in that place. Will I screw up? Will I just focus on my own stupid world and let the dead bury itself? Can I actually be a positive influence?

2004-03-04 12:54:21 ET

ah! that's difficult to think about... i hope things turn out ok in any case

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