End of the semester
2004-12-04 12:29:42 ET

Wow, it's the end of the semester already. I have two finals, one on Monday, and one on Tuesday, then two English essays to turn in on tuesday. I never realized until the other day how many of the people I'm surrounded by on a daily basis are failing half their classes. Most of the people that have continuously partied here this whole semester are failing either half or all of their classes! I think it must have something to do with the fact that I've already been out of highschool for 3 years now, and I've been in some form of college since I dropped out. I suppose the fact that I've also lived on my own a couple of times before now is helping me too. I kinda know what to expect from stuff and don't go completely apeshit.

It's funny, around the end of Ogeechee Tech, I remember posting a few depressed journal entries, and I felt the winds of change upon me. I knew something was going to change soon, and look at this. It's Christmas time already, and my first semester at a REAL college is over with. I don't think I saw myself ever being able to get into the university system.

I feel that detached feeling again somewhat. Things are going to change drastically next semester. Some of the people I see almost every day now, I won't see, and then some of the people that have realized they're about to completely destroy their lives by partying and failing all their classes might straighten up. Then, there's the other few that will realize that with a 0.0 GPA, they can't make it up after this semester and will simply give up.

This has been a fun/interesting semester for me. This is the first time since I've been in some kind of college that I went a little apeshit with stuff. Next semester, it won't be the same. I'll be really busting my ass in school to make sure I pull a 3.5 gpa out at least. Then I'll slowly work my way up and see how high I can take it.

The past week has been interesting. For the first time in my life, I've actually been going insane with a drug: Cocaine. It's been... rather crazy to say the least. However, after this weekend, I'll be clean for several months. I'm almost looking forward to that.

Wow, what a long post eh? Guess it's because I haven't been posting in a while... and I have a good bit on my mind lately. <3 to you all.

2004-12-04 12:35:54 ET

Good luck with your exams and staying clean awhile ;)

2004-12-05 16:21:36 ET

get off the coke. it's bad juju.

2004-12-06 05:51:31 ET

ya the coke wont help anything.
but thats great that youre doing good in school, im supossed to start college in august (wow! finally, after 6 yrs of HS!) and im freaked out about how much im going to have to do..

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