2003-02-14 06:56:37 ET|
another vday is upon us. a part of me loathes the aspect of this holiday which makes us treat people like they should always be treated. another part of me wants to let go of the cynicism for just one day and enjoy the day for what it is supposed to be. this year, like every year..it has snuck up and i find myself ill-prepared.
i reflected on the concept of love this morning. it is a beautiful concept. unfortunately, its application in the world is difficult at best. love is the enabler, it allows us to be at our best...and worst.
ive been hurt so many times by its double edged blade. and if i were to ask myself, 'was it worth it?'...i dont know what my answer would be. all i know is that i am very frightened to fall in love again. women are like fire...beautiful and warm...but dont stick your hand in the flame! every advance is cause for retreat. because i know without a doubt that even the best intentions can cause a world of pain.
EDIT: hung out with the crew at the pyramid last night. fun times. finally met ACCELERATED STATE. west coast reprezent!