2011-01-27 04:11:36 ET

I'm becoming more emotionally and mentally drained by the second. This 40 hour work week, 2 hours daily commute rountrip, and 16 credit hours is kicking my ass. The kicker is no one seems to give a fuck.

The best metaphor I've got is a finger of the interstate that I live nearby have both a North and South ramp. North points me in the direction of getting to work. South points me in the direction of the Sky Way Bridge which I'm starting to fantasize about jumping off of to break the cycle. That was just melodrama dears.

I text the boyfriend about this, he doesn't bother texting back. He has today off, he's up, and probably has his phone right next to him. Gee, really? I mean so little to you that I don't even deserve a reply, thanks. I mean seriously, do you guys really text people if you don't expect a reply? I know I don't. If I wanted a monologue I'd write here or something... which I guess is what I'm doing.

2011-01-27 04:25:37 ET

Why not give him a call instead of texting? That way, as long as he answers, you'll get a reply. If he doesn't answer, you've a different problem on your hands.

2011-01-27 04:42:23 ET

He answers the phone and then he just sits there quietly and doesn't talk.

No "hmm", no acknowledgement until one begins the "hello, are you there." and then its like, "yes."

2011-01-27 04:46:46 ET

When you say that you texted him about this, for what sort of response were you hoping he'd give you? An "aw, that really sucks" or "Please don't drive off of the bridge even though I know you're being melodramatic." Did you actually ask him something that warranted a response or was the message just about you telling him about your situation?

2011-01-27 04:53:26 ET

Comfort would be nice, I'd settle for an acknowledgment.

2011-01-28 12:31:14 ET

For 3 years I had 16 credits a semester, three jobs, an internship, a 30 minute commute each way to the main job AND I drove 3 hours across the state every other weekend to keep my relationship going strong.

*shrug* a full time job and a full time school schedule is pretty much the norm. You've just never done it before so you have to get used to it.

2011-01-28 12:35:52 ET

That reads way ruder than how I said it in my head. Whoops.

2011-01-30 16:45:28 ET

If I had a weekend to spend with my significant other I'd complain less. His weekend is Wednesday and Thursday. He works both days of my weekend every week and is passing out on the couch by 9pm.

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