2004-06-02 20:03:19 ET|
my mind is making stuff up, i am getting mixed signals
blank is not doing anything we didn't agree on, blank is not acting differently, my mind is just going into super sensitive terrified of relationship mode
this is retarded
I am retarded
this doesn't make any sense, especially since i have convnced myself that i wanta real relationship, not with him though, that impossible, unless these signals are actually telling me otherwise.....rawr...
edit- I am not losing interest, just we have a "deal" kinda and we are just not, we only do, trying to avoid everything but lust and friendship...or thats what i thought, hope, etc.
I am also infatuated with someone...have been for a while...never get to hang out with him or see him or talk to him, it's lame
why can't I just be a unic? or anatomically incorrect? that would be awesome!
void of hormones and emotion I would be exempt from all this crap...
how are you?