2004-11-30 12:42:06 ET|
I've had alot of shit happen to me in my life. as a result im a very fucked up person.
Highlights of my story~
Mom lives in florida, sister lives in colorado, My so called father is unwanted, and i dont have a clue where he is anyway so doesnt make a diff there.
Ive lived with my mothers sister since i was 3. Her husband and children were "my family" to everyone else.
My aunt never noticed anything was wrong with me. (i have almost everykind of depression there is, plus i was suicidal and homicidal, Ive pierce my arms, hands, brows, naval, and ears. Right now everything is healed up except my ear lobes and my naval)
I tried to kill myself 3 times, first time was when i was 11. Which was around the time I was being molested. (molestation lasted a year at the most) Anybody has any advice for me im all ears. but please no violent suggestions of revenge or anything because im past that stage and ild rather not go back.
But anyway my aunt is so niave that i actually showed her deep cuts on my arms and PAIN and HATE carved into my legs. She said i wanted attention, and dismissed it as nothing... I hated her for not realizing something was wrong for the longest time. If i hadnt of showed her all the cuts she would have never known, even til this day. Shes come around though and is alot more observant now.
Im better but im not great.