another entry today ah well
2002-08-06 14:39:21 ET

Schizotypal:Very High

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and the winner is :

Many believe that schizotypal personality disorder represents mild schizophrenia. The disorder is characterized by odd forms of thinking and perceiving, and individuals with this disorder often seek isolation from others*. They sometimes believe to have extra sensory ability or that unrelated events relate to them in some important way***. They generally engage in eccentric behavior and have difficulty concentrating for long periods of time. Their speech is often over elaborate and difficult to follow***.
(* = i display this)
(*** = i display this.. ALOT)
<this goes along with my theories of Coincidence... sometimes i see the world as connected in ways we cannot see... quantum physics was always there to back up my argument but i dont know anymore.. like for instance i believe i caused my cat to get run over by my own horrible thought, it was not something i wanted to happen but she got hit the exact moment i decided with certainty that life was worthless>

and the runners up are... Antisocial and Dependent (isnt this an oxymoron?)

A common misconception is that antisocial personality disorder refers to people who have poor social skills. The opposite is often the case. Instead, antisocial personality disorder is characterized by a lack of conscience. People with this disorder are prone to criminal behavior*, believing that their victims are weak and deserving of being taken advantage of. They tend to lie*** and steal. Often, they are careless with money***** and take action without thinking about consequences*. They are often agressive and are much more concerned with their own needs than the needs of others.

Dependent personality disorder is characterized by a need to be taken care of. People with this disorder tend to cling to people and fear losing them. They may become suicidal when a break-up is imminent*. They tend to let others make important decisions for them* and often jump from relationship to relationship***. They often remain in abusive relationships*****. They are overly sensitive to disapproval. They often feel helpless and depressed*.

Furax, only you can save me now!

2002-08-06 14:40:26 ET

so ARE you any of those?

like Schizotypal

2002-08-06 14:42:37 ET

I'm here for you :-)

2002-08-06 15:56:55 ET

well i put all the stars by traits that SERIOUSLY personified me. so yes, i am schizotypal (see above reference about how i believe i made my cat die with my mind)... i love my cat but i think that your own negativity can have ripple effects on your loved ones.. and then when i was ten i said the words "im bored" and two seconds later lightning struck my room ( i was in the living room, and this is a true story)... so i believe things are 'connected' in ways we cannot see ( i also used far flung explanations of quantum physics to justify these theories) ...

and as for my interactions with other people...

i believed at one point that antisocial and dependent was an oxymoron. i was wrong. i am quite charismatic, while being antisocial... my charisma has nothing to do with my COMPLETE lack of morals, or social sense of right and wrong (especially in relationships, ask anyone who knows me)... and yet i am DEPENDENT. i am a person who usually finds two or three people and becomes dependent on them (i have usually a very SMALL circle of true friends, maybe two or three, and due to my charisma, a LARGE number of meaningless acquaintances) but as it says, i do bounce from relationship to relationship. i also need Insomnia (my poor roommate/best friend to hold me together at the seams... and yet my antisocial (or shall i say, pro-social, anti-conscience) behavior has caused not just her, but many people that i truly do love, pain... and sometimes i just dont see whats wrong with my actions. sure i can fake it, apologize etc... but at times i really dont beleive in it... or see why people could be mad at me.. logically i guess i get it.. but empathically, i don't...
so in conclusion....
this test is a VERY accurate portrait of me. schizoid describes my world view, antisocial my morals/social conscience (or lack thereof) and dependent - my relationships to others.

this test hit me like a ton of bricks.

2002-08-06 17:31:05 ET

affect is a difficult thing to understand... there are mant different theories on emotion and how and why they are felt... (ie: have a pretty girl talk to a man on a sidewalk and he'll think she's pretty ...then have her talk to a man on a rickity old wooden suspension bridge that looks like it's about to snap and hurl you to a watery death and he'll think he's going to cum in his pants)
it's the same emotion but with one difference...differences may be extreme in my example but it's also true with much smaller things.
...also, this test's construction is ok but by no means definitive of any sort of psychological disorder... it could show what you may lean towards but that is all. it's not a diagnostic tool or case anyone was wondering.

2002-08-08 18:11:51 ET

thank you... i feel *slightly* better about that test

i still think i need to see a psychiatrist however

how much do you bill an hour? *jk

2002-08-08 19:22:13 ET

it's always free for you! *wink* :-P

2002-08-08 20:12:07 ET

requiem is good. the book is fine, also.

2002-08-12 09:02:02 ET

i took that test once and it said i was really schizoid.

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