2002-10-18 07:15:13 ET|
had a great night last night w/insomnia, anima infirmary, digit, and biomechanic... but now im playing hooky from work for the 3rd day. the first day was b/c i stayed up till 2 am debating whether or not the person i've been seeing & i will stop seeing each other.. it was very emotionally draining, and then my mom called crying about a bunch of shit i can't change that she chose to get herself into... was on the phone for an hour... and yesterday i didnt go to work because i ended up stuck with a friend who was very sick & couldnt drive me home as planned.. not that i minded at all b/c i care about this person a great deal but still, i didnt go to work. then i went out to have some fun last night with the kids.. couldnt sleep after i got back (probably like 3 am or so)... and once again, woke up late & didnt go to work . now i may need a doctors note.. and dont know what to do...
i have it pretty sweet, i work in grand central which is really convenient for visiting my friends that live upstate, out of state, etc.. plus its a great location, easy to get to from anywhere.. but things arent going as nice at the actual job as i had wanted.. they've stuck me with doing bullshit bank teller work (only because they fired a bunch of people) that i haven't been trained for and i'm terrified of. I"m not a teller: i'm sales, and i suck at being a teller. i'd be lot less stressed of a person if i didnt have to account for the wherabouts of $16000-20000 every day. sure, they're paying me more for doing significantly less but its the principal of the goddamn thing, you dont hire me for one thing and then stick me doing another..
okay so thats what i'm SUPPOSED to be doing there but they're dicking me around getting my appointments to sell through. which means i have extra credentials and yet am making no more than someone working at tower records, virgin, etc (which i might add are ALL hiring for the holidays) ... i'm about to ditch all the stress and do something boring and dumb again... sure its my fault i'm not coming in but even if i was coming in they'd still be dicking me around with my life/heath insurance license... i've turned down other job offers in the meantime.. bah...
besides, i think i need to re-think whats important to me in life etc... if i'm going to do something i hate i'm going to make good money doing it, goddamn it.
imma go develop the pic's from last night now.. other than my job, i have to say that i am overall, pretty happy with my life. which is a rare statement for me to make, and i have no one to thank but my friends.