dilemma (kind of)

death by design 2002-10-18 07:15:13 ET had a great night last night w/insomnia, anima infirmary, digit, and biomechanic... but now im playing hooky from work for the 3rd day. the first day was b/c i stayed up till 2 am debating whether or not the person i've been seeing & i will stop seeing each other.. it was very emotionally draining, and then my mom called crying about a bunch of shit i can't change that she chose to get herself into... was on the phone for an hour... and yesterday i didnt go to work because i ended up stuck with a friend who was very sick & couldnt drive me home as planned.. not that i minded at all b/c i care about this person a great deal but still, i didnt go to work. then i went out to have some fun last night with the kids.. couldnt sleep after i got back (probably like 3 am or so)... and once again, woke up late & didnt go to work . now i may need a doctors note.. and dont know what to do... i have it pretty sweet, i work in grand central which is really convenient for visiting my friends that live upstate, out of state, etc.. plus its a great location, easy to get to from anywhere.. but things arent going as nice at the actual job as i had wanted.. they've stuck me with doing bullshit bank teller work (only because they fired a bunch of people) that i haven't been trained for and i'm terrified of. I"m not a teller: i'm sales, and i suck at being a teller. i'd be lot less stressed of a person if i didnt have to account for the wherabouts of $16000-20000 every day. sure, they're paying me more for doing significantly less but its the principal of the goddamn thing, you dont hire me for one thing and then stick me doing another.. okay so thats what i'm SUPPOSED to be doing there but they're dicking me around getting my appointments to sell through. which means i have extra credentials and yet am making no more than someone working at tower records, virgin, etc (which i might add are ALL hiring for the holidays) ... i'm about to ditch all the stress and do something boring and dumb again... sure its my fault i'm not coming in but even if i was coming in they'd still be dicking me around with my life/heath insurance license... i've turned down other job offers in the meantime.. bah... besides, i think i need to re-think whats important to me in life etc... if i'm going to do something i hate i'm going to make good money doing it, goddamn it. imma go develop the pic's from last night now.. other than my job, i have to say that i am overall, pretty happy with my life. which is a rare statement for me to make, and i have no one to thank but my friends.

Furax 2002-10-18 10:40:38 ET don't mess yourself up and wind up being a po' mo'fo', ya know? friends? yeah i go some of those somewhere...i think...just sometimes... *shrug*

bio 2002-10-18 10:52:29 ET <3 I hope those pictures came out well. You crossed out your phone number, but not your surname.

ThermoXNuclear 2002-10-18 11:07:06 ET Friends rock, especially when they're Biomechanic.

doktor242 2002-10-18 13:02:09 ET Hey, we're here for ya babe. Just do yourself a favor: if you want out of the job, quit. Don't do our usual technique of making 'em fire you, you need the reference, yanno?

death by design 2002-10-18 13:04:03 ET eh. reference schmeference.. i say burn them bridges... i'm really becoming almost envious of a dead end retail job... my brain cells have better things to do than 'prove up' at the end of the day

doktor242 2002-10-18 13:07:08 ET you know you still have to do that if you have a drawer at Tower, right? My ex was a manager at Tower in Portland.

strangeangel9 2002-10-18 13:25:56 ET Legally a company cannot give any info regarding a former employee other than employment dates and salary information.

doktor242 2002-10-18 13:33:34 ET okey dokey! Then burn those bridges! But you'd better have a job in 6 mos.

strangeangel9 2002-10-18 13:36:26 ET Well burning bridges isn't always the best thing to do, but if you hate the job, move on before the golden handcuffs get ya.

bio 2002-10-18 13:40:51 ET AWww, Thermo. <3<3.

doktor242 2002-10-18 13:44:17 ET >Well burning bridges isn't always the best thing to do, but if you hate the job, move on before the golden handcuffs get ya. Sounds kinky.

strangeangel9 2002-10-18 13:45:26 ET golden handcuffs, golden showers........what's the differnce? :P

digit 2002-10-18 14:04:41 ET ...possibly the smell:

Insomnia 2002-10-18 17:03:44 ET bleah no more golden shower talking. only thing i am worried about for raine is her finding a retail job that only wants her for the holidays and then ditches her .. . kinda like some boyfriends do, you know. . .

strangeangel9 2002-10-18 18:12:32 ET bleah no more golden shower talking. agreed, being silly.

doktor242 2002-10-18 19:36:09 ET >only thing i am worried about for raine is her finding a retail job that only wants her for the holidays and then ditches her .. . kinda like some boyfriends do, you know. . . I thought that was what Raine did to bois, not the other way around?

death by design 2002-10-18 21:06:00 ET you apparently have not seen the cause of WHY I AM THE WAY I AM. im just too lazy to fix your *incorrect* impression of me being the bad guy... 'for what is evil, but good tortured by its own hunger and thirst..." -khalil gibran

strangeangel9 2002-10-18 21:10:34 ET from the Prophet?

doktor242 2002-10-18 21:11:19 ET >you apparently have not seen the cause of WHY I AM THE WAY I AM. im just too lazy to fix your *incorrect* impression of me being the bad guy... "One who has only met the butterfly, cannot imagine the caterpillar." -me.

Furax 2002-10-19 01:01:15 ET "i know plenty of things about people... but i never really know people." -Furax: Master of Something

death by design 2002-10-19 03:27:31 ET yes strangeangel.. from the prophet (!) my mom gave me that book ... *hands strangeangel 40000 Lebanese Poetry Points* and d242- three blind men stood around an elephant. the first felt its ear, and said 'its soft, and flat' the second its trunk, said 'no, its long and skinny' the third felt its side and said 'its big and bulky'. and what did these men all have in common A LACK OF VISION. thank you. :p

doktor242 2002-10-19 10:01:03 ET Once again, the student instructs the master. Love your background, but where is the White City?

death by design 2002-10-19 10:02:33 ET umm that would be straight down (financial district)

doktor242 2002-10-19 10:05:39 ET It's beautiful.

death by design 2002-10-19 10:07:49 ET i even changed the side pic's on my main page to go with it... you know this is from on top of WTC#2...

strangeangel9 2002-10-19 17:45:42 ET 1000000 life points to DBD's mom for giving her the Prophet. And 40000 points to DBD from SA for the inspiration to drag out my old copy. :)

bio 2002-10-19 21:41:53 ET And one million points to DBD's mom for being a sexy beast and telling me incriminating secrets!

death by design 2002-10-20 05:59:08 ET mein gott.. what on earth could she have told you

bio 2002-10-20 07:01:52 ET Does a boy on a dog collar remind you of anything?!

death by design 2002-10-20 07:05:40 ET eh who hasnt...

bio 2002-10-20 07:08:18 ET Not me and my pure innocent ways, that's one ...

Insomnia 2002-10-20 07:14:25 ET not unless i was getting paid . ..

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