2003-01-16 20:21:43 ET|
after three years of fighting it
and a lot of lateral drifts
i have made up my mind.
i want to build something beautiful.
i am willing to work towards it.
meet my dad.
his name is Richard. he is a Structural Engineer. See that thing behind him? He made that. He also made me :) not bad, huh?
my grandfather is an architect, his dad a structural engineer, his dad an architect.
the first three are MIT graduates.
everything you see around you, all the buildings, roads, everything... started off on a piece of paper (weird, huh?) and before that, in someone's head.
this time its going to be mine.
this week i lost something. but i also got something else: sometimes life is an inexplicable trade-off.
now i know what i want. now i know where i want to be. and i know what i have to do to get there.
it's not going to be easy. i am terrible at mathematics. its like a dyslexic kid deciding that he loves literature and wants to be an editor. God's big Joke: i want to rebel; i want to be different. but so many great stories are about coming full circle; and how you can't really know what the place you came from is like unless you undergo trial.
i could have done this years ago. but i have learned so much, about life, about people. i can't see the past 3 years as a waste; i simply can't.
i haven't told my dad. i don't know how. but sooner or later i'll have to.
he's the only one who can help me with my homework.