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2004-02-23 01:09:26 ET
god....everyday just seems to get worse...I mean i didnt have a bad day at work, i was actually productive and active...but yet at the end of the day i just went home to my room and sat there and looked around.
it felt so empty and cold, almost lonely...and of course, me thinking again didnt help (goddamn i need to stop this thinking crap...). I actually sat there and did something i havent for quite a while. I sat there and cried silent tears...I sat there and realized i have become just as my room...lonely, empty. For everthing I have and have worked for in these last two years, it just came crashing down in my mind. Two years ago i was a scared little boy who had no clue what be and expect for the next day, and nothing has changed.
There was a qoute I saw in one of the offices today, "I live by who I am, for that is all I know." The thing I fear now is that I dont know who i am anymore... |
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