| I don't know what I want to do... | 2008-03-24 11:42:35 ET |
Its getting so close to the time when Quinten gets out of the Navy and we get to move back home. I have been wanting to go home forever it seems. Now that it is actually getting closer to the time we actually move home I am having very mixed feelings.
I don't really like the area I live in now, but with Quinten out of the Navy we have a lot more choices on where we go. We can live further south closer to NC. I am going to miss the beach and the big city living.
Back home there is nothing to do unless you drive 2 hours. All of my friends are moving out of the area, and are starting their own lives. I won't see them just like I don't now. Family can always come visit. In 4 years my mom has been here twice and Quinten's mom has been here once. His dad hasn't come to visit at all. The only reason we have seen them is because we have gone home. Also everyone seems so sheltered there. They haven't been any where except our small town and I don't know if I can deal with the petty small town crap and drama.
The main reason I was excited to go home was to live in my old house in the contry, and my mom who has seemed the most involved in Sage's life will get to spend all the time she wants with her. My mom isn't in good health and I want her to be able to enjoy her grandaughter.
Job opportunities in IN are scarce and here they seem to be abundant. I could go to school and start a career, and Quinten has a better chance of finding a well paying job. I just really don't think there is much for us back home in IN. I do miss my friends and family terribly though and I know Quinten does too. I am just not sure what to do.
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