2008-02-05 08:30:21 ET|
so let's talk about how i have so much work to do at my job right now, and i don't give a fuck. i'm a debt collector and i feel like a 40 year old soccer mom trapped in a 19 year old's body. get me out of here!
where did i find this job and why am i here?
i never thought i'd say this, but i can't wait to go back to school for cosmo and start working at a job i really wanna do! pssh.
honestly, sometimes i think my add keeps me busy. i know i'm not doing what i'm supposed to be doing, but at least i keep myself ... "sane." ha.
all i have on my mind lately is how long it's been since i've been with a female. as psycho as my ex-girlfriend was.. i miss her. well not her herself, but the THOUGHT of her. i talked to Rachel the other day, the lady in my life..whom i've never met (silly, i know)..but i think she's really unstable and tells me things about her life i don't wanna hear so i'm not sure if i want to go see her, ever.. she's really goofy and tall and cute and has big breasts and open-minded, all of which i love about her, so i'm nervous that i'm going to fall for her and she's going to just..use me. she's told me about people she has used before and i don't know if she realizes that she's turning me off by doing so.