fuck me
2008-02-05 08:30:21 ET

so let's talk about how i have so much work to do at my job right now, and i don't give a fuck. i'm a debt collector and i feel like a 40 year old soccer mom trapped in a 19 year old's body. get me out of here!

where did i find this job and why am i here?
i never thought i'd say this, but i can't wait to go back to school for cosmo and start working at a job i really wanna do! pssh.

honestly, sometimes i think my add keeps me busy. i know i'm not doing what i'm supposed to be doing, but at least i keep myself ... "sane." ha.

all i have on my mind lately is how long it's been since i've been with a female. as psycho as my ex-girlfriend was.. i miss her. well not her herself, but the THOUGHT of her. i talked to Rachel the other day, the lady in my life..whom i've never met (silly, i know)..but i think she's really unstable and tells me things about her life i don't wanna hear so i'm not sure if i want to go see her, ever.. she's really goofy and tall and cute and has big breasts and open-minded, all of which i love about her, so i'm nervous that i'm going to fall for her and she's going to just..use me. she's told me about people she has used before and i don't know if she realizes that she's turning me off by doing so.

any advice?

2008-02-05 09:48:21 ET

Break it off with her and then go to a lesbian/homosexual hangout. I'm sure there are coffeeshops or clubs that would cater to the demographic in Boston (I think you said in a post you live close to Boston). Hetero or homo, manipulative users of people need to be kicked out of your life.

2008-02-05 09:52:06 ET

true, see you make sense. my brain doesn't allow me to make sense when it comes to hot women, ha.

2008-02-05 10:55:41 ET

doubt means don't.

don't create drama in you life.

love yourself before you can love another.

eat your wheeties.

2008-02-05 11:14:10 ET

that's a good point.

you guys look at life the way i should haha, but like i said i'm blinded by pretty things. thanks guys.

i always thought dating girls was easier than dating guys, but i'm finding out i'm wrong. i just want someone worth my while to come along, penis or vag.

2008-02-05 16:56:40 ET

While her telling you about her using other people could be her way of "getting it off her chest" so that she could start anew, it is probably best if you leave it alone. There is obviously quite a bit of doubt in your mind and although part of that could be that you've never met her, there is too much doubt to warrant the upkeep that it'll take to continue the relationship.

conclusion, it's probably best to leave it alone for now and maybe later it could pick back up.
Listen to your heart, all things should be dealt with the heart. The mind causes too many regrets.

2008-02-05 17:33:42 ET

yer so right. i just wish it would be different bc she really is rad but her insecurities and "bad habbits" frighten me to say the least.


2008-02-05 17:58:24 ET

of courrrse!

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