2003-05-12 17:22:07 ET|
i felt really weak the last couple of days so i started taking my b-12/folic acid pills again. and now i remember why i stopped taking those damn things last time: strangely, that stuff makes me really sleepy and depressed. i dont let it get to me, offcourse; i can't efford to. but i must admit it scares the SHIT outta me because i hav'nt delt with situation like this in a very long time.
so i tried playing some music to get my mind off it but all the songs that i remembered how to play was too damn depressing. watched t.v, but all they ever play when you need that mind numbing entertainment is ricky lake, and that's even more the I can bear. some kindda cosmic joke i guess.
so i set down in the living room for a while and watched my little brother sleeping on the sofa. i envy him so much... so peaceful, spreaded all over. made me feel a bit better. watching him sleep gave me an urge to do everything in order to sheild him, and it made me feel a bit more vital.
anyway, sun is up, better hit the sack before i'll turn to dust or something nice like that.
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