2009-03-16 22:45:10 ET|
iīve canceled the house-concert with luthea salom. i talked about it with her, when i was manic, now i feel unable to make a nice event of it.
thatīs so bitter, but i know this feeling.
and i can be proud, that i donīt had to go to hospital this time.
although luthea is unhappy now. but sheīs a strong person, and i have to look, that i donīt do too much.
better a normal, boring life with tv, than clinic all the time.
last time iīve been in clinic three years ago and i donīt wanna be there anymore!