2006-08-21 01:33:49 ET|
I got off work a bit ago. I was reallly surprised that we got off so early. shit is crazy at work. there isnt very much room for us to stack the newspapers, we are understaffed, and the machines are either fucking up or broken, so me getting off at 2:30ish is CRAZY!
I am pretty sure that everyone at work thinks the following of me:
that I am weird, but nice, or that I am just quite. A lot of times I feel like people just see me as some stupid girl. I think this because unless I am in the comfort of my friends, then I generally dont talk. (actually even if my friends are around, I sometimes still have a hard time talking to people I am not close with) I am terrible at making conversation. I dont know why, I just am. so when maria isnt at work with me, I usually just bring a book and my cds and dont really talk to anyone (dont think I havent tried talking to people...I have, it doesnt work), which is why they probably think I am weird.
I feel like people see me this way a lot (If they have met me a few times, and dont really know me) but it is mostly my fault because I cant talk. A lot of times I will be standing by someone who would at least be considered an acquaintance, and I will be trying to think of something to talk about, I will think of topics in my head, and sometimes I will start a conversation, but it ends within about 2 sentences......and then there is this awkward silence....its never good.