to the depths of my depressed head
2006-01-03 15:22:59 ET

i hate it. these mood swings just eat me alive and i hate it. one minute i am fine and happy and then i get totally screwballed and feel like shit. i don't know what to do or what it is. it feels as if i blame everyone else for making me feel so terrible. and its not like i just feel bad. its to the point where i contemplated suicide or self-mutilation.. it just blows. i can't find anything wrong with my life other than my own thoughts and feelings. what the shit....


2006-01-03 22:13:58 ET

ive been feeling the same way lately as have others....something fucked up is going on lately <hugs>

it'll get better somehow. hang in there.

2006-01-04 09:23:28 ET

*hugs* thanks. i know it will get better. i am just so sick of it all.. maybe its the weather.. tis the season. well at least for me. i tend to get really moody in the winter. maybe we are predicting something that is going to happen and we are just preparing ourselves for the worse..

2006-01-09 20:27:34 ET

Yeah it's called seasonal depression. Something about the lack of sunlight can really affect certain people who are sensitive to it. I have a couple friends who suffer from it as well.
Wow...I hope it's not apocalyptic...

2006-01-12 08:39:52 ET

i hope not too. that would be really bad.. my friend greg was also telling me about how the lack of sunligh can cause the depression.. taking vitamins and exercising helps reduce the symptoms i find, in case you want to pass that on to your friends..

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