*somethings so terribly wrong*

BrownEyedGirl 2003-01-28 18:27:12 ET i cannot let go. i mean i feel so much pain. all i think about is hurting myself. just doing it. not to kill myself but to feel the pain. i'm deathly afraid of losing those i love. i mean it happens all the time. its just so awful i can't stand it. everything good is always taken away from me. its so hard to believe that i have good things at times. why do i keep living in the past? pitiful // blindside

turbo 2003-01-28 18:49:50 ET ive been there...many many times...<firm hug> dont hurt yourself...kick life in the nuts and keep doing whats best for you. you'll get thru it hun, give it time...i know you can do it. by the way...blindside rocks...and so do you (:

Wiggles13 2003-01-28 19:10:19 ET Sweetie... call me.. I was up, don't hesitate to call when you feel like this... I love you.

BrownEyedGirl 2003-01-29 05:56:26 ET Turbo: *hugs back* its just so weird. at times i just feel like giving up and at others i stand so strong.. yeah i love blindside and you do rawk as well! Gray-ham: i didn't want to call you. cause i knew i wouldn't do anything. i just felt meloncholy. i feel better fighting things on my own

The Statutory Ape1 2003-01-29 06:12:53 ET Walk on dear, walk on.

eccentric 2003-01-29 09:25:34 ET here is a poem that i...well..just read it...i think this is kind of about how you feel...hope you'll feel better hon =) Mourning Her face in her hands, she leans against the walls The tears stream down her pale skin She tries to hold on, but she is weak, she falls Her mind remembers her many sins She holds a photo, torn in places Her fingers run over the paper She sees their faces; she hears their voices Crying to her through the paper Why won’t They let her sleep?

The Statutory Ape1 2003-01-29 21:39:09 ET Mmmmm... that is a nice poem.

eccentric 2003-01-30 16:57:59 ET thank you =)

BrownEyedGirl 2003-01-31 18:11:21 ET i don't think anyone's ever had it more correct! that was absolutely beautiful. and its absolutely what it feels like. but its really just the tip of the ice berg

eccentric 2003-01-31 18:17:30 ET =) thank you, i've got 1 more. maybe this one'll b the middle of the iceberg ;) Despair I know I am living, yet I am not alive Seeking a new beginning, for fresh life I strive Looking for the life through its haze Only finding more cold dark days The heart is now cold, the mind is now black Feeling so old and so far off track === well, i dunno whether this one relates, it's just how i feel most of the time,so,anyways,i'll just shut up...

BrownEyedGirl 2003-01-31 18:22:42 ET lol don't shut up they're really awesome i mean i've never had someone even sorta understand and you get it really well..... grr i think i am part schiztorphrenic lol i can't spell that word...

eccentric 2003-01-31 18:28:50 ET he-he, skitsophrenic or schizotipal or schizoid?=)

The Statutory Ape1 2003-02-02 23:20:59 ET Skitz works as well. I agree with BrownEyedGirl, both of your poems are very good.

eccentric 2003-02-03 11:34:50 ET aw, thanks guys =)

BrownEyedGirl 2003-02-05 15:04:54 ET you're very welcome

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