This is now
2009-10-17 06:05:36 ET

I have changed, my life is different, but I like it.
I look back on my last entry and I wonder what the hell I was writing?
I have no idea.

Ill tell you about myself and I hope to resurrect this journal.

My hair is long, all the people I knew are gone.
I love where I am actually. My bedroom overlooks the city, but I keep the windows drawn.
The city is still my cradle, a place where I lay my head every night, my sister soul. I look her in her face everyday, I walk along her heart. I am happy.
Right now I see where I am and where Im going. My past looks like a lucid dream, a zombis memory. I am truly living right now, and I feel amazing.
There is no more smoke in my head.

Im getting married in two weeks. My dress makes me look like a super hero, and right now I fucking feel like one.

2009-10-19 07:08:56 ET

I'm not gone.

the thinnest threads are often the most unbreakable.

2009-10-24 05:11:24 ET

I shall clarify, all the people that were "friends" are gone. They have weeded themselves out...
They cut the strands, I just improved my living.

2009-12-08 03:57:27 ET

this is one of the most beautiful entries i have read anywhere on sk for a very long time. kudos. i definitely feel how you feel about cities, and i hope to have steered my own life in such a positive direction as your mental emotional state in this entry appears to be in the forseeable future. the journey can definitely be a rough one at times...or at least it has been for me.

2009-12-14 21:22:01 ET

Congrats on getting married!! Please post pics !!

2010-05-19 04:01:11 ET

done und done!

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