rocking some laid back trance. its good background music. TONIK..my friend rachel's project. more emergency work for HYDRA just popped up. i swear, i am gonna start swinging from the hips soon. i may not be able to go to pyramid tonight because of this new development.
i was just reflecting on how people never turn out as exciting as they seem. when it comes down to it, people are generally boring. find salvation not in others. we all look for others to improve us, to change us for the better...but we gotta start from home. everyone is unique...but bound by the limits of humanity: genetic hardwiring, emotional response, self-interest. its maddening, sickening, beautiful and fascinating.
people NEVER end up being the way you think they will... if you think they are exciting at first, than they will probably end up being boring and dull, im convinced that everyone has too much baggage, including myself :) ...but at least i dont front! lol
DC: yea dude...we chew through people until we hit resistance. with modern peer relations the way they are [internet, etc] we dont take time any more to work on friendships. its the 'if you are not going where i am headed, then you are getting left behind' effect.
sin: i dont know about idealizing...just expecting something different. and there are a lot of people who spend enourmous energy to APPEAR different [just take a look around on sk.net], but underneath the glowsticks, the capes, the mohawks...we are all still the same, driven by the same needs and desires.
>>with modern peer relations the way they are [internet, etc] we dont take time any more to work on friendships.
Az, it's not the time we're lacking, it's the effort/intensity. We clock a lot of hours on these "friendships," but what are we doing with that time? Drooling and making bad puns. . . it's humorous, but in the end, it's the serious time we spend with someone, getting to know them, that makes them a friend in the truest sense.
I think actually spending time with a small of group of people and having heart-to-heart talks brings people together the best.
My homies and I always get together at Norms late at night just to sit around and shoot the breeze. It's kind of the equivalent to a family dinner table. We talk about serious issues concerning or lives, or just about nothing inparticular at all. My bond with them is the strongest.
It's hard to find friends that you can just sit around and talk with. A lot of relationships have a pretense to them. For instance friends that one just goes clubbing or out to concerts with. Friends that one just shares certain activities with. Then that remains the extent of the relationship. Those type of friendships can only go so far and leave one unfulfilled.
insomnia:but for people who have difficulty making friends or have relocated(like myself), it's not just effort they're lacking, it's the "in." for me the internet presents a way to make friends locally by becoming depersonalized and there more easy to talk to and it's a good way to keep my friends back on the east coast without running up long-dist. charges. (plus i get to talk to the NYC rivets so when i go back to the east coast i know good places to go)