miss self destruct    
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cosmetologist, bio major, perpetuator of bad decisions

kill one man, and you are a murderer.
kill millions of men, and you are a conqueror.
kill them all, and you are a god.


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2014-02-17 21:57:23 ET

i never, ever, EVER want to see the movie frozen. i don't care how good it is. my roommates have been listening to that god damn "let it go" song at least 5 times a day, every day since they went and saw it back in november. i know 95% of the words to it just from listening to them sing it over and over again. i think my mask of sanity is about to slip.
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2014-02-14 16:58:34 ET

i started out my valentine's day in a chemistry lecture where our professor dipped roses in liquid nitrogen and smashed them on a desk. a fitting metaphor for how i feel about today.
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2013-11-14 00:25:25 ET

sometimes the strangest things annoy me. like, really huge things that any normal person would be outraged over just don't affect me, but tiny insignificant little things just get under my skin so fucking bad!

i have 3 roommates. 2 of our bedrooms are upstairs (i'm one of them) and the other 2 are down. apparently the ones downstairs don't have vents in them so they don't get any direct heat, while the ones upstairs do have vents, and my other upstairs roommate has the heating unit right outside her door. basically this means that the 2 people downstairs are always freezing, the other upstairs person is always hot, and i'm comfortable no matter what because i own a fan, know how to close or open my vent, and have blankets. this also means that since late august, the settings on the thermostat have run the gamut from having the air turned OFF when it's 100+ degrees outside, to having the air turned ON when it's 20 degrees outside.


right now my upstairs roommate and one of the downstairs ones are both sleeping on the same couch in the living room because they can't reach an agreement about what to set the thermostat to???? again, this is such an insignificant little thing that doesn't directly affect me at all, but i am strangely mildly annoyed all the same. well, maybe annoyed isn't the right word... it just seems like a super stupid thing to do. life gets way harder than having to sleep naked because you're too hot or buy an extra blanket because you're too cold. c'mon.

are there any stupid little things that rustle y'alls jimmies, even though you know they shouldn't?
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2013-11-05 17:02:37 ET

omg. i hate group projects. we're supposed to have a group of 4 people present a poster on PCR, RFLP, bacterial transformation, etc. in an hour and i'm about to rip my hair out.

what we had to do was each create our own poster, which we will turn in individually, and then compile the best parts of all of them to make one poster that we have to do a group presentation on. one of the guys didn't show up when we met to discuss everything and hasn't participated at all, and the two other people put in about 75% effort and there are tons of typos in their works. i'm the one compiling everything and both of them have essentially left it up to me to use my judgement to pick whose slides we are using for which parts.... is it wrong to just use all of mine, because mine are the best? hahaha. UGH. people!!!

2013-08-25 22:02:57 ET

erg. so, i said i'd start writing here again more faithfully, i guess now's as good a time as any to come through on that. i've just made it through my first week in university housing and i have a lot to say with nobody to say it to. well, i suppose i know who i should be saying it to, but since i'm a big wuss i'll just write it here instead.

the roommate situation is absolutely killing me. i'm a shy introverted type with bad bad BAD social anxiety, so having to share a living space with a stranger is stressful in and of itself. add the fact that i have to share it with not one, but THREE strangers, all of whom are minors and feign no interest in interacting with me at all, and i'm already praying for may to come and classes haven't even started yet. i hope that once i get out and about on the campus and in the community i'll make friends with some people my own age who are a bit more like-minded, but i'm always my own biggest critic and at this point it just feels like i'll be lonely and suffocating for the next 9 months. sigh.

being in this close proximity with younger people just enforces the fact that i'm an "old soul." last night i hid in my room for 5 hours unable to sleep because my roommates had like, 10 people over, were talking super loud, listening to music, and drinking until 4 in the morning. i can guarantee myself at least that this is the first and last time i will have to stuff cotton balls in my ears to get relief from that shit because the next time it happens i WILL get an RA involved. especially since there was a lot of alcohol involved. not even good alcohol either, but that shitty bottled strawberry margarita mix that miraculously jumped out of the blender and got all over the counter and stained it bright red. i would have been completely okay with them having a couple people over for a couple beers or something, but i definitely did not fucking sign up for frat house bullshit. i pay money to live here, too. i wouldn't take it upon myself to sacrifice a goat in the living room or something if i didn't know my roommates were 100% okay with it, i guess i'm just annoyed that they act like i don't live here at all.

one of my biggest worries about moving into this situation would be that i would be the resident grandma. i've always been the resident grandma. worry too much, don't have enough fun, be too cautious, follow the rules a little too closely. however, a big part (nearly all) of me still feels that there's nothing wrong with being a good person and doing what i'm supposed to do. i don't really WANT my roommates to get caught violating the house rules and breaking the law, but it really bothers me that they took it upon themselves to take over the apartment all night without consulting me in any way. it seems to me like a pretty common sense thing to do. i know i'd have had the common decency to make that judgment call at 19 years old. blah. hopefully things will chill out a bit once classes start and i have something to occupy my mind with... and at least i can take comfort in the fact that i am in control of the wireless router, so if they piss me off again there could just be a little interruption in their service...
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