Yet    2005-05-08 17:57:30 ET

Here i am again Listning to these waves of sound resonating around inside my head mixing with thoughts dont know why i feel like this now i should be ok but im in that rut again what am i doing all i want is for the next two weeks to be up then i will be free free from that drama shit the constant feeling of fear shaking me from the back of my head i just need to get the fuck out soon before i go insane im becoming tired more tired than before and im becoming sick the whole part of me that feels the need to be in a relationship has left me alone i dont know if or when it will return they seem so pointless sometimes sure you are happy for a time but then shit comes around and you want out again i have become tired of that constantly fighting with myself telling me that im in love i see no point in it now She had brought this back up now im not getting involved He showed me what it was like to be on the other side and it made me sick HE fucked with me and now im tring to be strong again but it is fucking failing again more and more i think im going crazy and the more i think it the more it comes true the only time i can stop thinking is when im Intoxicated but then i regret it in the end where the fuck am i going what am i doing i need sleep

Damn    2005-05-06 21:20:02 ET

well i just came back from a from a friends b-day party and what a party it is (still going on) i just dont want to be there when the cops come.... there is some HARD stuff there and when i say HARD i mean HARD not just alcohol but drugs too... i havent really been around them much im my time so it was kinda odd of course there was Pot...but not only that Meth Ice Crack / Crank and i dont even know what else.. but the thing is i still love most of the people there they are good guys and im not going to let something like that change my opionin of them im off to bed, Night Nights <3 5 comments

Weird    2005-05-06 07:17:32 ET

this is a quick update *at school* this girl i know comes up to me and the first thing she says is "we want you to run for class president" now there are 2 weeks before school is over and i have to write a Bio have two letters of recomendation and have this form filled out by TODAY at 3:00 what will i get to do? Give a Speech durning Graduation.... Holy Shit what the hell is going on... But im doing it not only was me getting Prom King a kisck in the ass to the school but this is too.... 6 comments

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