why the hell does that happen
i read something
and then i become pissed off
almost jelious
i think its that
she has something
and i have nothing
i just dont know how this is going
to end up
im still wishing for the best
but inside i know it wont be happy in the end
im still hoping
i just dont know why
i havent felt like this
ever
so strong
about how i feel
im not doubting my feelings on this
and when i see J-----
then i feel happy
just a smile makes me feel better
and a talk makes my day
i just know its not going to happen
but why the fuck do i continue to care?
they say
"things are going to change"
i say
"but not for the better"
they say
"yes, very much for the better"
i laugh in doubt
even when im gone
my mind is still going to be here
and i wont be able to stop it
i just wish that
this could have happened
but im still hoping inside
it wont leave me
i cant stop it
but the hope
and expected dissapointment inside me
are ripping eachother apart
while im dying from the inside
what am i to do
wish on a shooting star
continue to think
"this is going to turn out right"
when i know its not
but i cant let myself think that
this is killing me
im still going to feel for
this
and know that im sure of how i feel
no one will take that from me
The moon is down
and my love is running out
but i have the hope there to guide me.
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