| goodness 2007-09-10 16:02:53 ET
so dumb sometimes
so childish,concieted,dumb,and blind
when will you learn?
| tonight,ive got this city on my side 2007-08-23 17:14:55 ET
best feeling in the world:|
finding out the person you hate the most blames you for every single thing that has gone wrong in their life
worst feeling in the world:
realizing that you are compleatly alone in the middle of the night at a radio station,and your phone is almost dead.
teen horror movie anyone??
| 2007-08-23 13:39:16 ET
oh yea,oh yea...|
listining to the falcon
it recently dawned on me that almost all of my favorite bands are from chicago...
now,im certainly not of the religous strip,but i take hints when i see them...
i just really wana get outta this town,before it eats me alive
i think my mother has finnaly lost it,though...
she called me this morning accusing me of all sorts of fucked up things,mainly me being the reason her best frind no longer talks to her,or why no one will talk to her anylonger.(you see,i grew up with my mums best friends son,he even lived with us for a time...untill i woke up with him on top of me and all kinds of other shit...i wrote about it a while ago)she kept screaming at me asking why i wont talk to him anymore,and i explained it was because of all the shit hed done...she claimed i never told her about that,i quoted to her the conversation and she still claimes it never happend...shes been forgetting other conversations weve had too...
and the other day she broke into my fucking house,and called me screaming at me and essintally dissowned me because i wasnt at home...
over the past month,month in a half ive lent her over $500
when she "disowned me" she refused to give me a ride to work anylonger,so i asked if she would pay me my fucking money back so i could buy a car...
yea,that went over well.i ended up just hanging up on her
so,ive been riding the bus to all my jobs(i have 3 of them) and walking any where else
which doesnt really bother me that much,except for the average temp being 105 right now...
school just started for my little brother and sister,yet my mom hasnt even registerd them yet...
they should have been in school 3 weeks ago,and she says its because they havent decided where they want to go yet...
their fucking 15 and 17 years old,how do they get to b\make adult decisions?all throughout my childhood i was never made to go to school,my mother would wake us up and ask "do you really want to go to school?" because she didnt feel like taking us or just wanted to do something else.she then wants to scream at me at how dissapointed she is with all her children because we dont do well in school.
she would sit there and bitch to my friends about how i was never going to go to college because i was just too damn lazy,while im busting my ass to get into college,with her fighting me every way...
she wont give me tax information so i can fill out my FASFA,she "lost" all my AP scores,she forgets she has to give me rides to the school...
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
| yea... 2007-08-15 14:19:44 ET
drove to nashville yesterday to see against me!|
one of the best shows ive ever seen(ive been going to shows non stop since i was 10)
almost got arrested cause we got in a fight with this ugly bitch who was talking shit...
some guys in the crowd were like "you guys MUST be from memphis"
not sure if that was because we got in the fight or because my friend cierra was the only black person there(ive seriously NEVER seen so many white kids in one place before in my life!)
cracked my head on the stage a few times,so ive got a nice shiner
but,over all it was fucking amazing and i had a blast
i fucking hate nashville,but we're driving back up there on the 9th to see MSI
also gonna go to st.louis oct 26th for the lawrence arms show with my boy,
who freaked when he herd we got in a fight...
said he thought it was unattractive when girls fought
i told him then he was dating the wrong girl,cause im alway gettin' in fights
he said "thats hot"
ugh...had ablast,but i hurt like hell
my boys comin up to see me at the radio station soon ^___^
| can anybody tell me,why god wont speak to me? 2007-08-13 12:17:18 ET
goin to against me tomorow...|
this week has sucked cause,in the span of three days,all the electrical outlets have stoped working in our living room,all the lights downstairs have stoped working,and our air conditoner has decided to die...
its fucking 104 degrees right now!!!
cause i get to go see against me! tomorow with two of my faveorite people
and i have this new friend,and i likes him alot...
hes a fucking dork,but so cute...
its the little things,you know?
he texts bouncing souls and alkaline trio lyrics to me when hes bored and at work,we watch really horrible zombie movies together,he has a conceince(sp?)...just a bunch of stuff and i feel like a dork but...