1/2 + 1/2 = 1 whole
2005-03-09 04:34:08 ET

Keith Urban sang to me this morning. He told me exactly how he felt. I think I'm over the moon with that proverbial cow...(or perhaps just in love with my own better half.)

"Car door slams, it's been a long day at work
I'm out on the freeway and I'm wondering if it's all worth
The price that I pay, sometimes it doesn't seem fair
I pull into the drive and you're standing there
And you look at me
And give me that come-here-baby smile
It's all gonna be alright
You take my hand
And You pull me close and you hold me tight

Chorus:
It's the sweet love that you give to me
That makes me believe we can make it through anything
'Cause when it all comes down
And I'm feeling like I'll never last
I just lean on you 'cause baby
You're my better half

They say behind every man is a good woman
But I think that's a lie
'Cause when it comes to you I'd rather have you by my side
You don't know how much I count on you to help me
When I've given everything I got and I just feel like giving in
And you look at me
And give me that come-here-baby smile
It's all gonna be alright
You take my hand
Yeah you pull me close and you hold me tight

(REPEAT CHORUS)

Well, you take my hand
Yeah you pull me close and I understand

It's the sweet love that you give to me
That makes me believe that we can make it through anything

Oh baby, it's the sweet love that you give to me
That makes me believe we can make it through anything
'Cause when it all comes down
And I'm feeling like I'll never last
I just lean on you 'cause baby
You're my better half

Oh, oh baby you're my better half
Ooh, hey baby you're my better half"




Ah...right...that's why we do this...
2005-03-08 09:43:59 ET

"We cannot live together
We cannot live apart
That`s the situation
I`ve known it from the start"

Cinderella said..."They can't stop me from dreaming..."
2005-03-02 09:26:29 ET

What do _you_ dreeam about?

I thought I was dreaming when I saw the picture, then I read the description. I think I'm in love. Now, how to get the moneyÖ..

"Unique - classic - stately - palatial - cannot fully describe this three story seven bedroom five plus bath home bordering a golf course. Exquisite crown molding - French doors - wrap around portico - Veranda with dramatic columns - Home features three fireplaces - Hardwood floors -Library - Den with bar - Formal living room and dining room - Two spiral staircases - Heated in-ground pool - Central air - Detached garage and storage with four bedroom, one bath guest house - All this on 2.95 acres with a spring fed pond - Beautifully landscaped - This is a most unique property. PRICE FOR THIS MINI ESTATEÖ$725,000."

I won't stop dreaming just because it makes you feel pressured. They're my dreams, dammit. Don't _you_ ever dream? Why won't you dream with me instead of shooting my dreams down all the time? Unless of course, you're afraid to dream?

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2005-02-28 02:38:56 ET

**Slam! Bang! Zip! Swish! Crack!**

Reorganization of priorities commencing. Please stand clear, it's going to be messy.
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At the museum
2005-02-25 04:48:15 ET

At the museum of all things rare and beautiful,
Behind the viewing glass,
glinting inside the scintillation of compressed anthracite,
winking its sleepy eye; mocking relentlessly,
crouches a dream; woken from polarization.
The shine and circle: a force as gravity
Winking in the facets: a home, fidelity, a child.
Family
Honest, hard work, true monogamy and a pretty white picketed fence.
Mayberry never saw it so good.
One facet winks strength and another values.
A particulary stubborn angle projects relgion, morals:
A patriarchal family grounded in the faith.
Held as Plato's ideal behind the viewing glass
A reminder of what used to be
Standing with face pressed to glass
staring into facets and blinding light
Diving into the carbon fills an empty place
A woken dream relfected in my eyes; motionless on its velvet pedestal
A contemplative hope for the future.

randomness
2005-02-23 02:37:25 ET

**Everytime I see a white car
I remember how Anastasia died**

Un-numbered Haiku

Lonliness like white noise fills
the emptiness here
when you go and I must leave

**The sun broke the clouds after the snowstorm
My car was covered in snow
when is Spring going to come!?

**My best friend kicks ass**

**I've got an ache that the best lovin' can't take away**

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
2005-02-22 10:06:09 ET

Holy Hannah, I'm so tired....


oh crap
2005-02-18 02:38:31 ET

hrm...woke up nauseated. Probably not a good thing...

Morning DJ's Rock my world. Today's lineup:

1.) Feel like a Number - Bob Seger

"I take my card and I stand in line
To make a buck I work overtime
Dear sir letters keep coming in the mail
I work my back till itís racked with pain
The boss canít even recall my name
I show up late and Iím docked
It never fails
I feel like just another
Spoke in a great big wheel
Like a tiny blade of grass
In a great big field
To workers Iím just another drone
To ma bell Iím just another phone
Iím just another statistic on a sheet
To teachers Iím just another child
To irs Iím just another file
Iím just another consensus on the street
Gonna cruise out of this city
Head down to the sea
Gonna shout out at the ocean
Hey itís me
And I feel like a number
Feel like a number
Feel like a stranger
A stranger in this land
I feel like a number
Iím not a number
Iím not a number
Dammit Iím a man
I said Iím a man"

2.) Undercover Angel - Alan O'Day
"Cryin' on my pillow, lonely in my bed
Then I heard a voice beside me
And she softly said
"Wonder is your night light"
"Magic is your dream"
And as I held her
She said, "See what I mean?"

I said "Whaaaat?"
She said "Ooo-ooo-ooo-wee"
I said "All right!"
She said "Love me, love me, love me"

Undercover angel
Midnight fantasy
I never had a dream that made sweet love to me
Undercover angel
Answer to my prayer
You made me know that there's a love for me out there

(Somewhere)
Yeah, somewhere

Heavenly surrender, sweet afterglow
Givin' up my heart to you
Now, angel, don't go
She said, "Go find the right one"
"Love her and then"
"When you look into her eyes"
"You'll see me again"

I said "Whaaaat?"
She said "Ooo-ooo-ooo-wee"
I said "All right!"
She said "Love me, love me, love me"

Undercover angel
Midnight fantasy
I never had a dream that made sweet love to me
Undercover angel
The answer to my prayer
You made me know that there's a love for me out there

(Somewhere)
Oh, somewhere

Now you know my story
And girl, if it's right
I'm gonna take you in my arms
And love you tonight
Underneath the covers
The answer lies
Im lookin' for my angel
In your sweet lovin' eyes

She said, "Whaaat?"
I said, "Ooo-oo-oo-wee"
She said, "All right!"
I said, "Love me, love me, love me"

Undercover angel
Midnight fantasy
I never had a dream that made sweet love to me
Undercover angel
Answer to my prayer
I never had a dream that made sweet love to me
Undercover angel
Answer to my prayer"

3.) Roll on 18 Wheeler - Alabama

"Roll on highway, roll on along
Roll on Daddy 'til you get back home
Roll on family, roll on crew
Roll on Mamma like I ask'd ya to do
And roll on 18-wheeler, roll on
ROLL ON


Well, it's Monday mornin'
He kissin' Momma good-bye
He's up and gone with the sun
Daddy drives an 18-wheeler
And he's off on a Midwest run
And three sad faces gather 'round Momma
They ask her when Daddy's comin' home
Daddy drives an 18-wheeler
And they sure miss him when he's gone (Ya, they do)
Ah, but he calls them ev'ry night and tells 'em that he loves them
He taught 'em this song to sing


(REPEAT CHORUS)


Well, it's Wednesday evenin'
Momma's waiting by the phone
It rings but it's not his voice
Seems the highway patrol has found a jackknived rig
in a snow bank in Illinois
But the driver was missin'
and the search had been abandoned
cause the weather had everything stalled
And they check'd all the houses and the local motels
when they had some more news they'd call
And she told them when they found him to tell him
That she loved him and she hung up on the phone singin'


(REPEAT CHORUS)


Momma and the children will be waiting up all night long
Thinking nothin' but the worst is comin' with the ringin' of the telephone


Oh, but the Man upstairs was listenin'
when Momma ask'd him to bring Daddy home
And when the call came in it was Daddy on the other end
askin' her if she had been singin' his song
(Singin')


Roll on highway, roll on along
Roll on Daddy 'til you get back home
Roll on family, roll on crew
Roll on Momma like I ask'd ya to do
And roll on 18-wheeler


Roll on highway, roll on along
Roll on Daddy 'til you get back home
Roll on family, roll on crew
Roll on Momma like I ask'd ya to do
And roll on 18-wheeler, roll on"
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still manic after all these years...
2005-02-16 02:37:41 ET

Today is our 2 year aniv. Yeah us! Happy Aniv., Lover.

This song makes me happy. I don't know if it's the beat or the lyrics or the melody or the fact that it's disgustingly true for me in a he says/she says kind of way, but it makes me smile...

Accidentally In Love -

"So she said what's the problem baby
What's the problem I don't know
Well maybe I'm in love (love)
Think about it every time
I think about it
Can't stop thinking 'bout it

How much longer will it take to cure this
Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love (love)
Makes me wanna turn around and face me but I don't know nothing 'bout love

Come on, come on
Turn a little faster
Come on, come on
The world will follow after
Come on, come on
Cause everybody's after love

So I said I'm a snowball running
Running down into the spring that's coming all this love
Melting under blue skies
Belting out sunlight
Shimmering love

Well baby I surrender
To the strawberry ice cream
Never ever end of all this love
Well I didn't mean to do it
But there's no escaping your love

These lines of lightning
Mean we're never alone,
Never alone, no, no

Come on, Come on
Move a little closer
Come on, Come on
I want to hear you whisper
Come on, Come on
Settle down inside my love

Come on, come on
Jump a little higher
Come on, come on
If you feel a little lighter
Come on, come on
We were once
Upon a time in love

We're accidentally in love
Accidentally in love (x7)

Accidentally

I'm In Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
Accidentally (X 2)

Come on, come on
Spin a little tighter
Come on, come on
And the world's a little brighter
Come on, come on
Just get yourself inside her

Love ...I'm in love" ~ Counting Crows

too damn tired to try...
2005-02-15 02:37:23 ET

Standing in a dark room screaming.
The walls are closing in.
Someone says: "Why curse the darkness when you can light a candle?"
screw you.
There isn't any oxygen either.
I'm amazed there's enough space for me to breathe.
Please don't break your promises.
Please stop yelling at me
and please, please, please don't hurt me.
Let the cynical die a quiet, hopeless death
just please stop yelling.
There is no apathy,
obviously I care.
I'm out of solutions, I'm out of time, I'm out of things to try
Three options weigh me down,
each a burden, each an answer
One unthinkable,
One unattainable,
one so scare and rare
I'm standing in a dark room screaming and the walls are closing in.
No one can save me. No one wants to save me.
No one even knows I'm here.
I've been sending out letters through cracks in the ceiling and floor.
I've been shouting out cries for help and my voice is raw.
My fingernails are bleeding from clawing at the walls.
Sometimes quiet, sometimes loud, always pleading
the screams and cries have gone unheard.
Fallen on deaf ears
others see but avert their eyes
Where is the door leading out of this private hell?
Just open it from the outside
I can walk on through
if someone would just shine a little light
it's so damn dark in here.

Workin'
2005-01-31 02:42:30 ET

Heh...how about that?

"Okay I forgot about the trash
I didn't trim the long hairs on my mustache
I did buy you a ring I believe it was back in '93
Alright I admit it I forgot our anniversary
But I did pick up the baby this morning at the nursery
That ain't no big thing but it's gold star for me

You get tired and disgusted with me
When I can't be just what you want me to be
I still love you and I try real hard
I swear one day you'll have a brand new car
I even asked the Lord to try to help me
He looked down from heaven and said to tell you please
Just be patient I'm a work in progress

I'm sorry I got mad waiting in the truck
It seemed like hours you getting all dressed up
Just to go to Shoney's on a Wednesday night
I read that book you gave me about Mars and Venus
I think it's sinking in but probably need to reread it
But I'm starting to see now what you've been saying is right

You get tired and disgusted with me
When I can't be just what you want me to be
I still love you and I try real hard
I swear one day you'll have a brand new car
I even asked the Lord to try to help me
He looked down from heaven and said to tell you please
Just be patient I'm a work in progress

I know you meant well when you bought me those clogs
But my heels sure get hot down by the muffler on my HOG I'm
sure they're stylish but I'll take my boots
I try to do that healthy thing like you want me to do
But that low fat, no fat's getting hard to CHEW
Now I love your cooking honey
But sometimes I need some real food

You get tired and disgusted with me
When I can't be just what you want me to be
I still love you and I try real hard
I swear one day you'll have a brand new car
I even asked the Lord to try to help me
He looked down from heaven and said to tell you please
Just be patient I'm a work in progress

Oh honey just be patient now
I'm a work in progress" ~AJ

Billie
2005-01-26 11:27:23 ET

So I keep having the same dream...I get kidnapped by Billie Joe Armstong (in the dream I am a willing abductee). Hrm...three nights in a row...maybe I should do something about this...that, or I'm just a little obsessed.
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damn
2005-01-25 04:26:38 ET

Frickin' snow.
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It is never too late...
2005-01-20 09:42:11 ET

Reminder to self: It is never too late to discipline the little twit who smart mouths his teacher. I am not here to be their friend. I am here to teach them and expand their minds. I will not let him get away with being a smart mouth. I will retake control, because I have too or I will lose my mind.

Today was not a good day.

On the upside, one of my kids made a punk rock penguin in art class. I cracked up laughing. It was too cute. Further happy thoughts: tomorrow is Friday. I like ice cream. If it doesn't snow, I'll end up in NYC at the Knitting Factory on Saturday with my man, some friends and a whole lot of the ska. (**sigh** I hope it doesn't snow.)

Back to grading the midterms.......ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.

Tenui Nec Dimittam
2005-01-17 09:12:06 ET

Have decided that trust is not to be fucked with.

"One night, a young boy was forced to climb out on the roof when his house caught on fire. From the ground, his father caled, 'jump! I'll catch you!' All the boy could see was fire and smoke. His father yelled again, 'Jump, son!' But the boy protested: 'Daddy, I can't see you.' The father shouted back: 'But I can see you.'
Trust is vital for a wholesome relationship. When we say, 'I don't trust you,' we keep each other at a distance. We build walls, saying, 'That's far enough: don't come any closer.' Jesus came into a world of suspicious, reluctant, and cynical people. No trust. Every word was commented on; every action was criticized.
What a difference when we say, 'I trust you.' Trust doesn't happen all at once. The deeper we grow. the more we reveal about ourselves. It's a comfort to have one person we can run to when it falls apart - we trust that their love will accept us and give us the room to cry, yell, and scream. They let us get it all aout and stick by us as we put our lives back together and go on living." - Rev. Joseph Sica.

Think about it. Can you get naked with the people you say you trust? Just a thought.

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