| i gotta get drunk before the day begins, before my mom starts bitchin' about my friends. 2003-06-29 09:38:27 ET
I had the weirdest dream last night. All I remember of it was that Jeff and I were standing on a bridge really high up in the air, the scenery was absolutely beautiful, and he said 'i love you' for the first time. I replied with the same then he grabbed my hand and said he had to show me something. All of a sudden we were flying climbing higher and higher then he said 'here it is!' and we broke through the clouds. I could see the clouds below us and all this beautiful empty space and the stars above us. It was breath taking. |
hmm. I've been having a lot of weird dreams lately, especially ones with Jeff.
I went to an after open house party last night. It was rather boring. I saw some friends that I hadn't seen in a while so that was cool. I ended up driving the hour to come home somewhere around 4am rather than staying at my parents house which was only a few miles away.
| Shoulda fit like a glove, shoulda fit like a ring, lika diamond ring, a token of true love... 2003-06-24 14:41:18 ET
Polka dots! Woo! :)|
Today was my last day of class. I stressed over the exam way much last night, come to find that it was actually not that difficult. I guess that 2 hour shopping jaunt with Jolie wasn't study-time wasted after all. hehe
My ex has been calling me lately. He keeps inviting me to do stuff. He has been quite an asshole, on and off, since we broke up over a year and a half ago. So, i really don't know what to think of he being so cordial. Something just doesn't feel right about it. But, I agreed i would come over to hang out a little later anyway. We'll see how this turns out. Maybe he's finally tired of making the effort to be rude to me.
| But i do know that i love you, and i know that if you love me too... 2003-06-22 17:03:45 ET
what a wonderful world this would be.|
Ooh what a weekend.
I had to work early friday then go straight home to help set up for my sister's graduation party. bah.
I just about killed my sister. She was being so obnoxious. I should point out, though, that my sister is naturally obnoxious, self abosrbed and mega-bossy. It's her way, or...her way.
Considering that Saturday was her day she made little effort to be kind to me or my parents but preceded to put on her "i'm a perfect angel" show for everyone else.
The night before the party I was leaving for a few hours to go see Jeff and Liny gave me this speech while I was on my way out- "where are you going, ugly!?! you know you have to get up early tomorrow!! You're not getting out of helping tomorrow!! I know you won't though, becuse you're lazy!" I responded with- "ok MOM."
That was only one of the many run-ins the two of as had. She told me I couldn't go to another girls open house because "I don't like you, and I don't want you there."
She had to blow up at me because I simply corrected her behavior by implying that she neglected to say please to our grandmother when she asked her to go get her something.
I could go on, but it's making me angrier the more I think about her. She's lucky I don't play with sharp objects. I'm rather exhausted but I managed to make it.
I met my mom's adoptive father for the first time saturday! My mom's half brother also come up from NC. That was exciting.
***Family history time***My grandmother was married three times. Her first husband was my mom's biological father. They split up and her second husband adopted my mom. They split and my grandmother married again and had another child that she gave up for adoption. My mom never knew she had a half brother until he showed up at our door about 6-7 years ago.
Today sucked rather much. I had to work while they were doing construction inside the store today. I stood in a haze of cement dust for 6 hours. Not to mention the loss of hearing I ahve sustained from listening to a jack-hammer 20 feet away from me, without ear-plugs. When I left my hair was all gray and i could hardly breathe. It was sick.
Now that I've had a bath, a fudge-cicle and some time to rant i feel 10 times better. Time to go relax some more. :P