| Hrm... 2005-03-11 12:55:55 ET
Slept in til 1:30 today...was very needed :] Ashby woke me up when the boy was getting ready for work, though...he was walking back and forth from his room to the living room, which meant right past my door every 5 min...and was driving Ashby bonkers. Kept barking and growling at him every time he walked by. She settled after he left, though, and is now chewing happily on her tire.|
It\'s a beautiful day outside, albeit too hot for me :P I went outside for a cigarette earlier and almost melted. I don\'t know how I\'m going to deal when summer hits us full blast, I almost fainted while working on my client yesturday.
Last night, the boy and I went to dinner with his dad, sis, best friend, and close family friends. It was so awesome. I\'m still not as hungry as I should be after eating so much food last night....ooo...foood...I guess I am kind of hungry.
...thoughts...coming out...disjointed and...incomplete...must end...transmission...
| 2005-03-04 11:08:48 ET
Ok...as Promised...for those of you who give a shit :P My new hair can be viewed here,here, andhere.|
N'stuff...so there ya go...
Tonight, going out to the city with the boy. I'm going to be doing makeup for his friend's film...should be interesting. Said friend also wants me to do his hair, haha. Anyhow, so we'll be uber gothtacular after the film meeting, watching movies about vampires and drinking what I suspect will be Vampire wine :P
Oh, yes...so no moving is going to happen. We are staying right where we are for the next year, methinks. If we do move, it'll be somewhere on this side of the bay...and next year, when i'm making more money, and can afford to pay similar rent with the added cost of Bart, we may move city-side. A thought that once scared the boogers out of me is now somewhat exciting...I think it has something to do with my coming out of my hole. I would love to live in the city, now...maybe. Maybe I would hate it...but I'm entering into my mid-twenties, now...this is the time to experiment. I've never lived in a big city...someday when I'm old and gray, I want to look back on this time as some of the most exciting years of my life...figuring out how to live life and be happy, while at the same time being meticulous and calculated with my mula. I don't want to look back and think that I "played it safe" by not facing the things that frighten me...by not grabbing the bull by the horns and saying "Well?? Swing me around a bit, then."
Yesturday, I had a horrible day...filled with worries about money...paying rent, etc...but I realised that happens every pay day. It always works its self out. One year from now, I will laugh at myself for giving in to the grey hairs. Sometimes there's nothing to be done about any of it, so you have to throw up your hands and accept that there's nothing to be done about it.
And there it is, folks...Shan's self pep-talk...n'stuff.
| 2005-03-01 07:12:44 ET
Good morning. |
Let's see...We're out of coffee...which sucks my butt, cuz I'm really in need of coffee this mornin. I will purchase a cup o' joe on my way to school or die trying, dammit.
I got my hair colored today...pics be posted later tonight. It's totally psychodelic rock and roll hair, now...I've got the shag...now I have bright green that fades to yellow that fades to NEON ORANGE! I always hated orange...until I put it in my hair...I understand the orange thing, now. It's great...especially now that the orange thing is over :P
I miss my Nes. (refresher: she's the one in Iraq). I heard from her a couple weeks ago, but it was just a survey...Must email her today...shan, don't forget.
Ugh...off to do the school thing...oh, yes...and am re-reading Neverwhere by Neil Gaiman...I want to marry that man...he's so twisted.
| Stolen from Nuclear Fallout :P 2005-02-27 07:25:09 ET
My life needs to get more interesting so I'll stop doing these damn things...|
1. What does your Subkultures nickname mean?
Havn't you ever played "Jinx"? I dunno...the day I applied on here, I had just played Jinx with someone, and thought it might make a cool screen name.
2. Elaborate on your avatar?
I made it when there was that huge avatar-creater craze thing.
3. Who introduced Subkultures to you?
4. How many pictures do you have in your galleries?
uhm...haha...quite a few.
5. What's your current status?
6. What are you wearing right now?
Black wifebeater tank that says "Peter Thomas - For Hair Since 1978", jammie bottoms with sleeping kittens all over them, and red fuzzy slippers.
7. What is life to you?
Love, Work, Beer
8. What is love to you?
That fuzzy feeling you get when you think of someone that's different for every person you love. Like when I think about my dad, I feel safe and warm and protected. When I think about my mom, I feel secure and looked after. When I think about my boyfriend, I feel comfortable, admired and beautiful. When I think about my dog, I feel chaotic and squishy.
9. What do you hate most?
Liars. Like yesturday, my second client begged and pleaded her boyfriend for $5, cuz my haircuts are $25, and she only had $20 (which I know, cuz she said so). After he leaves, she pays for her haircut along with a $20 styling product - IN CASH. Stupid lying bizniotch...it made me really angry, cuz he was very sweet, and obviously really enamoured of her.
10. What do you love most?
my job, my room, coffee....feeling creative.
11. What makes you happy?
Warm snuggles, dancing with friends, praise from my boss.
12. Are you musically inclined?
Not so much any more. I used to play the flute, though, and I was damn good at it. I won awards and shit.
13. What would you do if you woke up one morning and found out that the person you love most doesn't exist?
I don't know...I think I would stop breathing for a minute. Then there would be sadness...a lot of it.
14. If you could go back in time, and change ONE thing, what would you change?
Bush ever getting elected.
15. If you MUST be an animal for ONE day, what will you be?
16. Ever had a near death experience?
Don't think so...although I did get stranded at West Oakland BART once...that was pretty life threatening.
17. Name ONE obvious quality you have.
18. What's the name of the song that's stuck in your head right now?
Tom Waits - God's Away on Business
19. Are you happy today?
No...I woke up with the dog bouncing on the bed, so I crawled into bed in the other room with the boyfriend...who growled at me...so i decided to make coffee...but the milk was bad, and now I feel nauseated.
20. Who will cut and paste this first?
Don't think anyone will. I think I'm the last person to do this :P
| 2005-02-22 10:17:11 ET
Went to DG last night. It was supa fun :] I got my dance on with Rachel and Mel and Starr and it was fabu. I am terribly out of shape, so I'm all owie today, but oh well. I slept through my alarm this morning...woke up ten minutes after class started. I'm going to call them shortly and beg forgiveness.|
Jaime was in rare form last night, haha. Ranty was she :P It was damn cute, though...and entertaining to boot! We have resolved that going to DG is something we should do more often.
I've been super gothy moodlike lately...In that happily dark kind of way...It's awesometacular. It's amazing how much gother my room looks lit with purple twinkle lights and candles....and a clean floor...I'm really diggin' on this clean room stuff. I cleaned it...probably about a month ago, now, and it's so much more fun to hang out in here...my little corner of the world that's almost just mine (It's Ashby's room, too).
Damn this no smoking in the house thing, man.
You know...watching how people react to things you say is really interesting. I was talking to someone last night, and they were saying how in LJ, they don't like to add anyone who bitches about their personal life. So I said to him in a non-chalont, i-don't-give-a-shit way, "Well, that explains why you haven't added me, then...that's all I do, if I update at all." and he fumbled over his words for a minute, and felt the need to explain further, changing what he'd said. I don't know why that sort of thing is fascinating to me. After we have stated an opinion, why are we driven to alter it in order to recieve approval from someone else? Once you've said something, stick with it, man. Not that I do this, but it's a good theory, I suppose. Or, perhaps it's that we feel after the other party has commented on our opinion, we haven't explained it clearly enough, and what looks to the other person like changing an opinion is really just elaboration? Are you lost, yet?
Fascinating creatures, we humans. I think I will go hang out with my dog. Much simpler :P j/k