| fuckers 2007-12-07 13:41:53 ET |
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so,my friend had to go back up to our old high school today to take her gateway exams.she had found a loopole in the system that says if you were in resource(special ed or whatever you may call it)for a certain amout of time,all you have to have to graduate with a normal diploma is all your gateways completed.
while there taking them,she was discussing with her former teacher the fact that if you are recognised as being dislexic,as i am, and had gone to resource for it,which i refused to do,then the only diploma you could hope for was a special ed diploma,that no college will accept.
the teacher informed her that that is no longer the case AND on top of that,they now recognize discalculia,the math form of dislecia.
WHAT.THE.FUCK.
not only did i have to refuse what little help they could afford me all through out high school,for fear of not being able to go to college(the one thing i have always dreamed of doing.)but now you tell me the reason i droped out of high school is no longer a problem?!
NOT EVEN A GODAMNED YEAR AFTER ME DROPPING OUT?
i could never get tested for discalculia bacause enone of the three school boards surrounding me recognized it,and i couldnt afford the private test.
i had not one but TWO seprate math teachers ask me to get tested,without knowlege that was dislexic.
i could handle being dislexic in school.it was hard and i felt fucking retarded,but i could deal and got through all my classes reasonably well.
but i just can't fucking comprehend numbers,and get numbers and letters together?
FUCK.
thanks memphis city schools,fucking my over since 1993.
oh,i also got my acceptance letter to college today.
take THAT fuckers.
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| 2007-12-04 00:02:37 ET |
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god,i love it when people you havent talked to in months(because there stupid bitches,of course) still post angry things about you on the internet...
especially when there dreams...
iiii'lllllll hhhaauuunnttttt yyooouuuurrrr dddrreeaaaammmmsssss!!!!!
shit,i have been up for way to long today....
been on the internet for way longer...
and im almost out of cigs...
this could be bad.
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| ffffuuuuccccckkkkkk 2007-12-03 17:45:37 ET |
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"In the face of change
Is when she turned to me and said,
"I'm not sure anymore..."
And now, amidst the waves and the cloudless skies
that'd blanket the year before,
I watch my life wash ashore.
Have you ever been a part of something
That you thought would never end,
And then of course it did?
Have you ever felt the weight inside you,
Pulling away inside your skin,
And then something had to give?
Now the lines are drawn,
Is this feeling gone?
The best parts of this have come and gone.
And now there is all this is.
With the reasons clear,
We'll spend another year
Without direction, full of fear,
But now things will be different.
There's nothing simple when it comes to you and I,
There's always something in this everchanging life,
And there probably always will.
Now that time is getting harder to come by,
The same arguments are always on our mind.
We've killed this slowly fading light.
Now the lines are drawn,
Is this feeling gone?
The best parts of this have come and gone.
And now there is all this is.
With the reasons clear,
We'll spend another year
Without direction, full of fear,
But now things will be different.
Now something has kept me here too long
And you can't leave me
If I'm already gone.
That says that something
Has kept me here too long
And you can't leave me
If I'm already gone.
Now that we
Make the same mistakes, we're always hanging on.
Break those promises we're always leaning on.
All this time spent waking up.
I keep this line open to get this call from you
Speak the words
That keep me coming back to you.
Now this time it's all different.
Now something has kept me here too long
And now I'm gone..."
Everchanging-Rise Against
trying my best tohold on,and not just take off.
but i want too so badly.
so.much.shit.
my mom's power was cut off today,because my g-ma lost he job and my mum hasn't botherd to go get one.
guess she thinks the bills will just pay themselfs.
or mabey she thinks my brother(who is also sans job) and i will pay them for her.
so,they have no power,which means no heat...
its like 30 degrees here.
so,what do i do?
what i always have to do.
there all living with me now.
yep all five of them.
in my 2 room duplex.
with my two roommates.
one of which ive been fighting with anyway.
now,i've lived much much worse than this.
(read:my whole family,plus an asian in a one room apt.fun fun.)
this doesn't even phase me.
i just feel real real bad for my room mates,who have never had to deal with anything like this.
i'd also just kinda,mabey a little,like to shoot myself.
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| FUCK 2007-12-01 17:05:18 ET |
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almost got fired today...
i slept through half my shift....
but all is well
went to brians show last night,which was kickass...
then went to a few lame frat partys w my bro and some of his friends...
couple people came back to my place,everybody just hangin out
till one of my roomies came home,just to start a fight with us...
tottal bullshit...
everybodys hanging out tonight...
i need more friends,badly...
my group of friends is so small that were always at one anothers throughts for one stupid reason or another...
but,most everyone else around here sucks or is a raging drug addict...
what-to-do...
WHAT-TO-DO??
i need sleep
@.@
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| gimmie gimmie gimmie the keys to the city.... 2007-11-30 12:24:55 ET |
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walked up the the university today to turn in my statement...
found out all my transcripts made it there on time...
so now all i have is two weeks of waiting waiting waiting...
the i find out if i got in or not,whether i have to go appeal or not,and what kind of scolorships are avalible to me...
i'm also waiting on my pin from the FASFA thing so i can go back up to the GED place,and they'll help me fill it out online and give me more info on that scholorship i can get from them....
still looking for a better job...
i'm calling in sick to work tonight so i can go to brians show,and celebrate with the alyssa...
fuck yea
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