| damn 2007-04-04 11:33:01 ET
the situation has been compounded.|
i dont want to kill her.
but,then again,i really really do.
what to do???
| 2007-04-01 14:25:41 ET
saw the hills have eyes 2 last night....|
well,i really only saw half of it,having hid behind the indian for parts...it was good.very few movies just really gross me out,and buy,was that gross...
i'm incredibly bored ><
| skins,punx,and drunx 2007-03-31 09:54:58 ET
it's raining,and i love it.i'm never so happy as when its a warm rainy day,with the promise of a good fight.and oh,how i love a good fight.|
yea,some shit went down between me and this other chick thats kind of a friend-by-default(i.e. she hangs with some mutual friends,and dates this kid who's like a brother to me)
long story short she made the mistake of talking(more like screaming)shit to alyssa,then made the mistake of taking a swing at me when i got in her face and told her to shut the fuck up.just about the only smart thing the bitch did was run away after she swung at me.which may not have been too smart,because now i can plan what i'm going to do to her.
what makes me so fucking mad is that she's blaming her actions on medication.not even real medication,but birth control.i'm sorry,but if your stupid enough to start a fight with someone you know will kick your ass,then dont blame it on anything other than a lapse in judgement.had she said "i'm sorry" to BOTH of us and not blamed it on some bullshit,then we'd be cool.
but she did it,and honestly,i've been looking for an excuse to beat her ass for a while(oh,ever since she started going out with my friend)so,yea.the first chance i get....it will be great ^___^
in case you haven't noticed,i'm something of a redneck.
got lars fredrickson and the bastards stuck in my head.
and i just found out fucking iggy pop is coming.hellyes,this day just keeps getting better!
| sunshine highway 2007-03-28 19:19:04 ET
so i've been feeling rather crazy lately,and i'm not to sure why.honestly,theres no reason for me to be freaking out as much as i have been.but,oh well.|
woke up this morning to my mother informing me that alyssa(one of my closest friends)was being evected.i fliped (having been evicted and subsequently homeless twice myself) and texted her back.she wan't being evected like shit thrown on the street evected(which is what happend to me the first time),they had just been served that morning by her uncle.
yea,her uncle owns the house she lives in.on christmas,he informed her that her x-mas present was that he would wait till she graduated to kick them out,him being very surprised that she was going to graduate at all,let alone at the time she was fucking valedictorian of a class of over 1000.bastard.she is the single most inteligent,moral,good-hearted person i have ever met in my life.and EVERY way she turns she gets fucked.every time she tries to better herself theres always someone there to fuck her over.
so,im spending my weekend helping her pack up herself and her mom and lookin for places for them to go.cause her moms not going to do it...cierra made a good joke today about how "we gotta let our parents go,gotta let them grow up sometime" we are so fucking busy taking care of them,and fixing their mistakes that we cant even focus on our own.
she really doesnt diserve this.if i ever see that bastard.man...i'll fucking go to jail,but it'd be so worth it.such a "christian"
thing to do.
so,i've been thinking about it,and after i get my other side done(my left corset)i want a scarification.i've always wanted a full back tattoo,and i've always wanted angel wings(yes,i know,every fucking body has them)i just always found them very beautiful,and ive always wanted them.but i always wanted mine to be diferent.so i decided that a pair of wings scarred on my back would look amazing.i've always loved sarifications,i admire anyone with enough balls to get one,particularly if its done well and with meaning.i donno.i'm looking at artists right now.i dont like the only guy who does it in memphis.so i'm going to have to travil to get it.which doesnt bother me.for good art,id go anywhere
| Memphis is burning 2007-03-27 13:30:08 ET
ha.my neighbors house is on fire,right now.not a bad one,just their back yard.my mom saw the smoke and started screaming for my brothers to runover there and check it out.they offerd to help put it out,but they said they had it under control,so,whatever.|
fire makes me think of my AP photography portfolio thats due in a week,and the subsequent $85 that i have to pay for it.fuck.
i've only got 12 pics so far(i need 24.12 for my concentration and 12 for my breath,bredth,bre...how the fuck ever you spell it)i've changed my concentraion 3 times already,cause i just can't wrap my head around the idea of "design".first,it was light and shadow,then it was contrast,now its perspective.i'd really just like to tell them its bullshit and move on,i'll save that for the artist statement.perspective should be really easy,and my breath is no prob.i should prolly be worrying about this,but im not.especially considering that once ive got this all turned in im dropping out of school and getting my GED.yea.now you think i'm retarded,right?
i love the look on peoples faces when i tell them this,its always a mixture of profound confusion and then a little sadness.perhaps i should take it as a complement,but it just pisses me off.i dont want to have to do that...i'd love to graduate with my friends and do all that time-honored shit.but,i've been essentually screwed out of an education and if i stayed in school i wouldnt graduate till i was at least 20.fuck that.i'm not stupid,i just cant read you bastards.or do math.oh well.
i want to start in the spring at a technical school or mabey if i'm lucky an actual college.for the tenn. hope scholorship all i need is a 26 on my ACT and high entrance and GED test scores.i've got a 25,i've only taken it once and tests are pretty easy for me.
i'd really love to leave memphis for college.i dont care if its only community college at first,but as long as i'm not stuck here i'd be happy.i dont care how hard it'd be in a new city.i've done the whole poor/homeless thing,its not something im new too and its not something i could'nt handle.
watchin lord of the rings:3,and i only half understand whats going on...