I feel traped.... | 2007-08-19 11:36:59 ET |
My friend and I were talking about school today. We went to high school together and she is now a senior at Ball State University in Muncie IN. It made me start to think and I realized that I am going to be almost 30 by the time I graduate. Thats if I get back to school with in the next two years.
I don't really know what I want to go to school for though. Well actually I do...Photography. Professional Photography. The school I want to go to...Brooks Institute of Photography, but its clear in California.
Quinten gets out of the Navy next July and he wants to go home and work at the state hospital. I was going to go to school for nursing or teaching. Logansport is a good town and I love being home, but I don't think I want to spend the rest of my life there. I think Quinten does.
My real dream is to work for a magazine or a fashion company or an advertisement agency. I want to take pictures of celebrities and models. I want to take pictures for National Geographic. I want to make ads for productsthat makes people want to go out and buy it as soon as they see the picture.
I know that all seems very dramatic, but the point I am trying to make is that living in little Logansport IN those things have zero chance of happening.
I just know that Quinten wants to go home and be with family and raise Sage there and his dreams are what are keeping mine from happening. I don't even really want to discuss this with him because I don't want to squash his dreams. I love him more than anything and don't want to even think about living without him, but what am I supposed to do when his dreams are so different from mine?
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