where do bad folks go when they die?
2008-10-30 10:36:51 ET

after a lengthy (almost 2 hrs) conversation with a friend just now, a portion of it about my grandma, i have decided to cut her out of my life.

i am a responsible person in every sense of the word, i don't do drugs or drink or hang out with the "wrong crowd", i do well in school and i am a courteous respectable individual but none of this is good enough for her because of the way i look. she still clings to the idea that this (piercings,crazyhair,etc) is phase and sooner or later i'll be back to all dimples and pigtails.

she doesn't respect my opinions or feelings on any topic, she treats both me and my mother like we are 5 years old and i am tired of it. i don't deserve it, i dont like it, and my mother is the most beautiful person i know and at 47 years old is still afraid of her mother. there's no way she could be as unforgiving to her(my grandma) as i am, of course, but i feel that this course of action is best for me right now.

as things currently stand i don't ever see her realizing that HER actions have brought me to this decision, not my own weaknesses, but someday if she does i will be ready to forgive her and have a new, better relationship.

grandma, i will always love you, but i'm not going to apologize anymore.
right now i hate you and i am not sorry for that.

millions of peaches, peaches for me
2008-10-27 10:31:44 ET

being sick sucks ass.

however, vicodin is fun. the bitter taste of it when you chew it up combined with ruby red grapefruit juice kinda tastes like one of those crazy smirnoff flavors. black cherry, i think.

i heard back about my computer today. the motherboard was bad and the chipsets weren't wired for dual channel (whatever that means). basically the people who put it together need to l2.

i've gotten like 5 credits since august, i am awesome. i'll probably be done early which means i'll have a month or two to dick around before the actual graduation ceremony.

went to see the symphony here a while back, it was really great. i like to pretend i'm classy sometimes.

nin on 11/26, super excited 'bout that.

now i'm gonna go watch the rest of jerry springer.
today's topic is "lil cousins, big problems, and a tranny"
beautiful. :D

bargain hunting
2008-10-18 09:36:59 ET

yesterday i got a pair of shoes and a pair of boots, together at least $80 retail, for $7 at goodwill. i'm going to clean them up and sell them.

hello money. :D

2008-09-11 12:18:20 ET

zoop.

2008-09-02 11:32:37 ET

yes! i talked my mom into buying me tickets for NIN in november.
*meanwhile, dies in anticipation*

HUGE SUCCESS!

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