i am agoin absolutely crazereee.
not knowing if josh (love of my life) if truly back in town or not.
i have no idea whut to say if i see him.
hah he probably won't even remeber me or something.
i am sooo bloated today it sucks.
i rilly need to go and see my doc soon and see if i have an ulcer or something.
but i am runnin round pullin myhair out n goin nutz.
i think i might go to the bar tommorw.
cuz i have a feeling that if he is here he will be there.