went to a movie
watched
the emotional breakdown of a friend
a shoulder to cry on
someone to talk with about it
but then it went down
walked around a parking gerage
in the middle of the night
in the car
no words
come home
shit still happeneing outside
and in here
i leave
i go out
i realize that this is it for the next year
nothing new
nothing diffrent
the same thing
every week
for a year
fighting
classes
working
saddness
empty stares
broken hearts
rolling tears
empty feelings
im tired
they are lucky
they have that at least
im going to stop looking
there is no reason in it
i just want everyone to leave me alone
i want to leave myself alone
im not going to find it
its not as simple os they make it
im ready to quit
i need to work out
im getting fat
im breaking down
im tired
i have had enough.
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