today was a good day.. i didnt even have to use my AK....    2002-10-10 19:26:33 ET

You Are a Sarariiman!

Or "salaryman." Whatever. Treadmill off, treadmill on.

Most of the sleep you get is on Tokyo's extensive subway system, since you are putting in 14 hour days.

You're a workaholic who works hard for no overtime. And vacations? Forget about it.

You spend most of your trip hunting around for gifts to bring back all of your coworkers.

What's *Your* Japanese Subculture?

heh.. how true... i had to take a stacker2 to get through the work day today. for those who don't know, stacker 2's are a caffiene/ephedrine chemical mixup pill that basically amounts to legal speed. i'm not even kidding, i worked the late shift and somewhere around 5 i knew i was not going to be able to deal with these stupid clients of mine without some legal crack. now seriously i know i have had a stacker problem for a while, ever since last summer when i started to pull the clubbing/work/2 hour commute circuit. my life is nowhere near as hectic but its still not easy to resist the temptation of taking things a bit further than a cup of coffee.. i'm not even kidding you can sleep for 2 hours (drunk) and take one of these things on a monday morning and feel like god i swear i wouldnt have done it unless absolutely necessary. but enough of self justification...

i just found a new reason to live!!!!!!!!! now i have DSL at home... i dont even know where to begin... i can start with my flash website work again... hehe..

okay more of my absentmindedness got me in trouble today... i ended up losing my cell phone last night/this morning.. so i called it and some foreign guy picked it up.. i had to go to the boonies of upstate NY to pick it up and get it back.. i gave him $40 as a reward.. he looked like he needed it... i will just put that $40 in the bucket labeled 'stupid tax.' .. yes 'stupid tax'. its the cellphones i have to replace, the late charges i accrue... the cd's i break or lose etc... i'm constantly paying the stupid tax.

but one good thing happened today...

I OWNED IN AIR HOCKEY. i know it seems like such a small thing.. but its not.. if you are reading this (and you know who you are) you are presently suffering the agony of defeat... muahahaha

so i had a talk with this boy i'm dating about me not being able to change... he's playing this devil's advocate everything-you-know-is-wrong position.. its a discussion that usually starts with my fashion sensibilities and ends up in music and lifestyle... (in his opinion i dress like a boy too much, and my short boy hair is redundant.) he's okay with the suit & tie daytime persona... because i rock the pulp fiction/reservoir dogs look.. so he said 'well just be glad you're not dating the typical predictable rivet boy...' keeping in mind that once i came to terms with the fact i was dating a prep everything made sense again... but then i pointed out... 'your problem is that you'redating the typical rivetboy...' god knows i act like one... i'm sloppy... i'm having a LAN party for my birthday @cybercafe (for those who dont know its when nerds get together and shoot each other on lots of computers)... i'm always asking 'where's my wallet...' i never return phone calls. did i mention that i'm sloppy? right now the pile of wires at my feet in front of my computer looks like a mountain of techno spaghetti... i consider tv dinner a home cooked meal... i'm becoming more and more a carbon copy of my dad, and i'm not even trying (especially being the sararriman and all that)...

but i've said this before and i'll say it again... my life seems to be a constant quest to prove my 2 best friends in florida wrong... Tim, (overly left brained) who thinks that success in life can be achieved by saving your receipts for everything (okay maybe thats an exaggeration but you get my drift) and eric (overly right brained, if there is such a thing... who (in my moms words) thinks you have to be a fuck up to be cool.. now neither one of them is really that bad but still, the polarization exists and i'm caught in the middle.. determined to prove to everyone that you can be successful and creative at the same time...

now if i could only stop losing my damned cell phone...


 sweeeeet    2002-10-06 12:37:54 ET

Which ArchAngel are you most like?

brought to you by Quizilla

what an ego boost...

well i'm at Web2Zone.. they're hosting the World Cyber Games, its really quite the big deal, like the olympics but with computers. we're trying to get the Quake3tourney winner to join he's gonna be going to Korea to compete in the nationals

so let me ask you people this.. if everything worth having is worth fighting for, or worth waiting for, how do you tell the difference? like if its a person.. and you've been waiting a while.. how can you tell when to start fighting for what you care about, stop pretending that you don't? my timing is always exquisitely fucked. i fight when i should wait and wait when i should fight.. i cant say specifics but i dont know what to do and dont want to lose something important.. maybe i should just be ok with being in limbo... *sigh*

**went to stromkern saw bio and azraeltriggger.. had plenty o fun.. details later

 quiz results and tattoo advice    2002-10-05 15:15:44 ET

thinking of getting this as a tattoo, just the gun. getting it on the underside of my left arm (the space between wrist and elbow, below the wrist) where most people get their black flag bars.

Insomnia calls this a jobkiller . but that arm is covered in scars on the other side, it looks like a wolverine had its way with that arm, so i always have to wear long sleeves anyway, it doesnt make much of a difference the way i see it.

oh yeah

and these happened

You are professor Membrane, inventor of SuperToast, and all that stands between Earth and chaos!. There is only Science ...and occasionally it's unfortunate intersection with your family.

The time for choosing is now!

<small>Take The Mighty Invader Zim Test!</small>


 short story **50,000 friend points if you read it***    2002-10-03 17:43:13 ET
can be found here .

dont laugh its a stupid page builder thing i just copy pasted the text. let me know what you think... its actually a short snip of something with a painfully elaborate plot.. its easier when you write about it in pieces


 I REPEAT, THIS IS NOT A HOAX    2002-10-03 16:45:00 ET


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