There are those moments when time passes too quickly.
People leave you, though not always forever.
People make ridiculous choices regarding country power.
People mistake you for some one else.
You grow fond of people you know you won't see much, and alot happens when you don't want it to.
" There are so many hammocks to catch you if you fall, so many laws to keep you from experience. All these cities I have been in the last few weeks make me fully understand the cozy, stifling state in which most people pass through life. I don't want to pass through life like a smooth plane ride. All you do is get to breathe and copulate and finally die. I don't want to go with the smooth skin and the calm brow. I hope I end up a blithering idiot cursing the sun hallucinating, screaming, giving obscene and inane lectures on street corners and public parks. People will walk by and say, "Look at that drooling idiot. What a basket case." I will turn and say to them "It is you who are the basket case. For every moment you hated your job, cursed your wife and sold yourself to a dream that you didn't even conceive. For the times your soul screamed yes and you said no. For all of that. For your self-torture, I see the glowing eyes of the sun! The air talks to me! I am at all times!" And maybe, the passers by will drop a coin into my cup.
That quote makes me think there are actually people who use their mental capacities.
I'm hardly around the smart ones.
I feel good about my job, I don't feel good about my living arrangements. But life, as life, goes on.
Hear me out.
It's my turn to make comments concerning how you live.
ps- you know you have a rockin good friend when they take books for you.
I now own Less Than Zero by Bret Easton Ellis
|Broke Away||2004-03-25 09:16:18 ET|
There are times where I wish i could recreate old odd times in my life. Like the time we stood at the window on the sixth floor of this p.o.s. apartment complex and threw t.v.'s out. The sound of the cement and gravity ripping them apart. T.V. is a bastard creation, reducing minds to nothing. Just like ADHD and these fucking rents putting the kids on medication. let them be crazy man, thats a kids job. (if i offended someone with that, well, we all have our own opinions)
In the past few days i've seen how easy excuses are, and i've used quite a few in the past week.
Now I work, and still hang out. And hardly sleep. It becomes interesting after a while.
The Twilight Singers are going to this place in NC. We will try and catch the show.
Aside that everything is up in the air until I go to VA for a couple of weeks.
Life is, well, interesting lately.
I've been seeing alot of my old friends and everyone is doing beter now.
I remember that last time, we were all so pale and thin, i'm not sure if we could even say a straight sentence without spaces or mispronounced words.
But that was 2 and a half years ago.
And we are all sober now aside some drinks on occasion.
I saw alot of my old friends saturday night because we went to a b-day party for one of them and i ended seeing a couple of people that i didnt really want to see but its all good, because whats the point in holding grudges. Especially after this long.
Odd thing about it though is that people keep misunderstanding relationships that have to do with me and a friend, for use as an example. And i've been hearing some creepy stuff about him. but, i'm good in the relations aspect. I met some of his artsy friends, and i must say, it was almost a beat down the trail of beatnick.
But it was cool at the same time.
but thats it for now. I hope all is well.
In one hand, there is a bottle
the ears are absorbed by Interpol
sleep is needed
straight edgers are an interesting bunch to be around
|Remain||2004-03-03 12:37:25 ET|
Show yourself, don't hide behind self pity. Influence.
I don't think i know you.
But all is well. We still breathe, whether or not its breatheable air, we do share some form of the same.
It's easy for me, but as for you, how hard could it be.
Don't travel too far astray, and don't mix the thoughts of ememies with friends.
Sometimes its all you have to hang onto.
I drove around today, I saw so many, in their own world, but it didn't seem to be beautiful. Nor enticing to even look in upon.
But I realized, mine, no matter how small, has always been that.
And now, upon my stop, it gets better.
Odd? I didn't think so.
-PDA - Interpol