email conspiracies?    2005-04-23 21:24:03 ET
Is it just me? or I have the theory that those bastards that send you junk email, as advertising and spam email and they say you “somehow” were subscribed to them, and then ask “if you want to be removed from their database click here” and the you type you email to be unsubscribed, and the only thing they really do is to subscribe you to more load of shit of spam an ads. Maybe I’m just being paranoid.
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 smashed avocado    2005-04-20 19:39:30 ET
I flunked another exam, fuck. By a very small detail I didn’t pass. A lot of suffering for the lab practices just so I flunked the exam. Crap.
Yeh, you all have heard of the new pope, needless to say more about it. blahg…
Damn violin pseudo teacher, why in name of fuck does he want me to keep practicing some left-pizzicato studies? That’s shit for only professional or conservatoire students, I can’t play that stuff, it’s damn too hard. Whatever, I’ll keep practicing Vivaldi, Bach and some Mozart of my own.
Ah... fuck, either in school or in the music ambient, I don’t seem to have much in common with many people.

 woes    2005-04-17 20:15:50 ET
I’m depressed right now. I feel a little psycho too. I’m not something good for anyone or anything.

It’s been long since didn’t post any thing here, I was very damn busy last week, some crappy shit from school and another low feelings with music. I also even tried drawing again but didn’t get much results, I’m decaying almost in everything. I’m a total failure as a social individual, but I pretend to be ok when I’m actually dying inside. Fuck it. I’m just a fucking failure at everything. I can’t do anything well.
I’m tired, I need to sleep.

 Sleeplees    2005-04-04 21:52:06 ET
I tried to go to sleep at 11:40 pm. ...bad idea. I was about one hour in bed without any sleep. It’s so frustrating; you start thinking of the weirdest shit, the usual, of how I’m such an ass and loser.
Tomorrow classes start again. I have this sense of guilt, I said I was going to at least read something of the books so I wouldn’t lose much of the subjects seen, and I didn’t. Crap, it’s just that sometimes I find more entertaining composing canons, fugues and other counterpointal exercises for my own musical amusing. Unless it was strictly mathematical issues of school, then I’d be delight of reading and solving shit. I guess I still don’t find all the fun on transistors and diodes and shit; I will eventually have to like it more.
Oh yeah, so I’ve been too much time trapped in home, I’m such a social fuck. We’ll see how thing go tomorrow... or I mean today, in a few hours more.
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 Midnights    2005-04-01 18:42:23 ET
I have been having really weird thoughts lately, some strange stuff. Sometimes I’ve started to imagine that I’m talking to an imaginary friend, then, sometimes (for a few seconds) I feel like I if I really had talked some stuff with someone, but then I remember, ‘oh, no I was just imaging it’. Heh, I guess that for the fact that I can recognize I was just fantasying talking to someone I’m still sane.

Two nights ago, also, something strange happened, I had been listening too much music, writing music, thinking of random stuff, watching videos, etc, and finally when I turned of the computer I felt the need of knowing my age and I couldn’t remember it! Ha, seriously, for just about 5 seconds I wasn’t sure of my age! So I just recalled the year I was born and finally remembered. Heh, what a fuck?
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