|boredom strikes agian...dun dun dun..||2002-07-31 19:41:57 ET|
Name: NiCole Ritchey
* Nickname: NiColeO, NiColie,NiC, NickelDime and a Quarter (don't ask) Conokanut, Peananut
* Birthday: May 12, 1985
* College:hell no
* E-mail: email@example.com or AuthorityIsDead@aol.com
* Color of eyes: green
* Hair: Red
* Height: ....5'3"
* Shoe Size: 9 1/2 10
* Brothers/Sisters: one lil bro
* Bedtime: not regula
---------HAVE YOU EVER---------
* Ever been so drunk you blacked out: eh..not yet
* Been in a car accident:haha..yea
*Been Hurt emotionally: oh yes
* Kept a secret from everyone: yes
* Had an imaginary friend? mhm..lots
* Wanted to hook up with a friend: yea
*Cried during a movie: yup...shh..I'm not a pussy!
* Ever thought an animated character was hot?: haha..shhh...yes
* Had a New Kids on the Block tape: LOL..yes..lol..shh..don't hold it agianst me! I was little..
* Been on stage: yup
* Cut your own Hair: lol...alot..
* Been Sarcastic: ..eh..yeah..
*Shampoo: ..some shit that my mom buys
* Color: pink and black
* Day/Night: night
*Lace or satin: satin
* Cartoon Characters: gir, scooby doo
* Food: dunno..
* Movie:Sid and Nancy
*ice cream: Chocolate Chip Mint
* Subject: art
*drink: Dr.Pepper..it makes the world taste better ya know?
* Wearing: Misfits t-shirt, black cut off jncos to knees,
* Drinking: pepsi
* Thinking: i'm sleepy, AJs a dork
* Watching: the screen
* Listening To: the humming of my computer
------IN THE LAST 24 HRS--------
* Cried: not yet..still got a few more hours..
* Worn a skirt: nope
*Met someone new: nope
*Done Laundry: yup
*Drove a car: a jeep
--------DO YOU BELIEVE IN-------
* Yourself: sometimes
* Friends: yeah
* Santa Claus: YES duh..how do you think we get our presents!?
* Tooth Fairy: She don't come see me anymore cause I lost all my baby teeth, guess Imma have to start knocking out my big peoples teeth
* Angels: yes
* Ghosts: hell yes..I have a few in my house, honestly
* Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: both....lol...
*Like anyone?: my b/f..fuck my g/f lol.. (j/k)
* Who's the loudest: eh...me..
* Who's the weirdest: haha..me...or Sarah..its a tie
* Who do you go to for advice: AJ,any of my friends or my peoples at SK..mostly Moma SiS
*Do you want all your friends to do this and send it back to you: yeah..i guess..
|Jehovas Witness and Johnny Law..||2002-07-31 11:53:41 ET|
ok..I've typed this 6 fuckin times..and my keyboard is gay, andwhen I'm almost done typing it deletes it! So I guess I will type this later, but for now your gunna have to guess what the fuck went on today! Cause I'm pissed at my computer and I'm not typing all that shit agian just for it to delete! maybe later you will know...
|..life..||2002-07-30 08:51:24 ET|
>Ever had that feeling that everything is falling apart?The your life is on a slow downward spiral never seeming to stop? I do.
I believe it all started when I was 8yrs old. My dad was diagnosed with Agent Orange(pcpt) and Hepitis C.Thats when he started drink ALOT more than usual. He was never a mean drunk, then. All through my 17 yrs of life, my parents have spilt up and got back together over 7 times. That can be really stressful when you are the age I was at the start. Now that I think of everything it all started when I realized my little brother got treated better than me.See my lil' bro has C.P. ( cerebral Palsey), he can't walk right. I guess I'm jealous of him, I dont know. I have always taken care of him and stood up for him all my life. And he never apperciates , or thanx me for anything I do for him. It hurts me when he says he hates me. I guess I'm angry at him.
My parents use to be ok,but over the years its gotten pretty bad.Maybe its my fault because I'm so hangry and hurt, saddened and upset at them,for all the broken promises and the way they set a double standard with me and my brother. They never have and never will like anything I do for them. I try not to yell, scream, cry and shout at them, but a person, a child can only hold and keep so much deep down inside of them before they burst.
All my childhood and teenage years have built and constructed the bitter, hateful, angry, sad, confused little girl.I'm angry. I'm angry that what happened in the past and what is happening now. I can't hold anymore in, my sponge has absorbed all it can hold.
I feel horrible because I am so angry at people who've done nothing, at people who don't deserve it. I'm angry at my parents, my brother, my whole family. I'm mad at people who
don't know,the people who don't understand. I'm mad at the people who don't give a shit, the people who don't care. And most of all I'm mad at myself.
Maybe I'm just seeking attention? Maybe I'm jealous of people that have what I don't? Maybe I'm selfish? Maybe I'm just being a brat?
I don't know. But I do know this...things cant get much worse from here, they can only get better, but when? Am I going to stay this selfish, angry, sad, bitter little girl forever? Or am I going to have my time when I'm completely happy? ......Only time can tell...and only time can change it.....
|NO SLEEP til brooklyn ( or somthing like that..||2002-07-29 13:40:25 ET|
I did not get any sleep!!!
One because me and my cuz stayed up talking. And 2 because my lil cuz was whining because she didn't want to go to bed at 3am. She wanted to stay up.She is so bad, she grabs peoples boobs, flashes not her cheast or butt either, she kicks punches. God I just wanted to throw her out my bedroom window.Also wanted to drown her in the pool. Oh I hate super whiney kids. Grr...when my cuz isn't standing directly behind me I'll write more. I hate when people stand right over me...
got to sleep at: 5am
woke up : every 30mins to 2 hours.
|..family values...||2002-07-28 15:33:43 ET|
Ok, so I'm here with my cousin. Whos staying at my house for a few days. I love her. Her name is Venessa.So I'm gunna be pretty occupied.Not much boredom. Then next wensday I go to AJs yup yup. We're going to Kings Dominion with him and his family, its gunna be fun, cause his family are really interestingly awesome. So yeah....Imma let my cousin on her now, so she can look at all my shit and make fun of me, yay!. So talk to ya later...