take one four times daily    2004-10-01 11:18:09 ET

So because nothing seems to fix my depression, I went to see a doctor today. he says I may have a hormonal imbalance. It's different than a chemical one cause all I may need is some extra vitamins and a slight adjustment to my current diet. yeah, so apparently I am not only lactose intollerent, I may be wheat intollerent as well. Goodbye food. they took a bunch of blood and I will know wednesday if it's something more like my thyroid or some other amuno-sorta-thingy. He thinks a couple months of birth control fading into a hormone/amino acid building, vitamin regimin will take care of my horrendous pain, migraines and depression. Until then he has me on a holistic treatment of some amino acids that raise seratonin levels and some other spray stuff that suppose to help me sleep at night

I know other people's medical crap is never interesting, I just thought I would share the experience of seeing a dr who didn't prescribe anti-depresents at the first sign of tears.

 And it opens tomarrow.    2004-09-23 10:57:42 ET
So how come I quite working and find myself having even less time to spare?

The play I am designing sound opens tomarrow. I am going to be happy that it's completed and I can let it do it's run. This was my first accual sound design. I am use to light where I look at a play and try to see it in colors. I have done costumes designs, and set designs. Both are still very visual as well. This is the first time I have tried to create a world using the auditory sence. I have had lots of fun with it. It has been stressful at times and there have been moments I was sure it would all be better if it wasn't blue grass music. I am not the director, I did not choose the genre. The play is called "A Lie Of The Mind" It is one of Sam Shepard's lesser known plays, but it is an emotional drama that talks about the resaults of abuse and disfuntion. (yes all played neatly out to the tune of blue grass)

Once I finish I direct my thoughts towad the next production. A musical called "brownstone" This little sondhiemish show takes place on an apartment building and deals with city life. I am stepping back into familar ground for with this one I am Assistiant lighting.

Well, got to study for a test...

 Not working    2004-09-15 21:48:05 ET
My schedule has been deadly. The pace I am moving at has only left me in depression. I try to do too much, I know this. How does one draw a line? Where is the light that blings on when you have reached your maximum scheduling compacity? If there is one I always miss it and don't realize it's on till I have three things too many on my plate.
So I have been praying about not working this semester. I asked God to make a way for me to have less demands. I asked him to make it possible for me not to work.

I think I have recieved my answer.
The money I have recieved just yesterday in the form of a loan check from finacial aid is a little more than I need to live on for the next few months... I even have more money than what I technically need.

School is the priority, I will not cut down on classes. I have already committed myself to the two plays and, not that I can even back out now, I will see them through.
My last Day with the painting business is going to be friday. My boss doesn't know It yet.

I hesitate, however, at the word LOAN. This isn't free money, I have to pay every single cent back plus intrest. I hate debt. The debt I am currently in with credit cards and parents will be settled before the end of the year. School loans, much to my dismay, are going to be huge.

I have consulted two sources who know me well. My Mother and my Love. Both Agree that me taking this semester off will be good for me.

So with a deep breathe and a prayer of thanks to God, I am going to be purposely jobless for the first time since I was 16.
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