| I wore pants!!! 2004-08-21 15:38:21 ET
Well, the last few days have been interesting to say the least. Yesterday started off rather boring actually, like any other day off, ready to be wasted on the internet, as per my routine. But my beloved mother wished for me to go to the post office to send some things off for her, like I had been promising for several weeks now, what can I say, I procrastinate! So off I went with my sister, after a measure of goading, she did not want to go and I did not wish to go by myself, I get bored rather easily, I need something or someone to keep me amused, dagnabit! Turns out, when we got to the bus stop and waited there with a bunch of people and their irritating children, that the bus stop was closed, the street was under some construction, so the bus had to detour several blocks away, sigh, which meant walking I had not intended to have to do. And children, oh, do not get me started on children! In case you do not know me, I cannot stand children, I loathe in fact, though I must say, one of the best things about children is that they have no shame, they will stand there and stare at you endlessly, which is what one of the young girls did. Argh, so on we walked until we reached the stop, waited for the bus which fortunately, did not take too long. FYI, I was already in a rather unpleasant mood this day, this was just making it worse and by the time we were on our way home from the excursion, I was on my last nerve. This older gentleman made the mistake of not only staring at me as I walked by but he actually stopped behind me and continued to stare. In my mind, I was like "Okay, that's it!" So I turned around and just went off, well for me. I yelled, "What the fuck are you staring at?!!" than I flipped him the bird. Heh, I probably scared the living hell out of the poor guy because when I turned around, he was gone completely!|
And today was even better. I had to be at work at 11:00 am, I woke up, felt exhuasted, wanted nothing more than to toss my cell phone against a wall and go back to sleep but up I went. Ah, and I decided just to freak everybody out, I would wear pants, yes pants!! People who know me know I never wear pants, I have not since I was in high school, I do not really have a reason for this, I just do not like pants generally but these Lip Service capris just begged me to buy them, on their hands and knees they were! As you all probably know, back to school is coming so thusly, we should be rather busy. We are not, of course, the mall in which we are really sucks, more so than your average mall. I scoffed at our plan to make $7000 today, there was no way in hell that was going to happen. And here is the most amusing item of the day. I was told by an assnt manager who shalt remain nameless that earler that day, before opening, she was having a conversation with store manager about what to put in the cd player. Assnt manager suggested that they put in something I would like so store manager suggested Rob Zombie, um not something I would pick, but I am fairly indifferent to him. Than store manager has the gall to say "Well, I'll bet fake goth Pam won't like it." Heh, assnt manager stood up for me because I am widely adored at work, because I am so awesome, and store manager's reasoning for saying that, "She doesn't even like Marilyn Manson!" Goodnight everyone!
| The Ultimate Survey of Morbidness! 2004-08-18 23:54:33 ET
If you are a goth, or any dark individual, you must take this survey, or according to the Goth Rule Book, you are not goth....um where does it say that, hmm, somewhere in the back I think. It may have just been a rule I made up just right now, but maybe not!! Do you dare chance it? Heh, anyways, enjoy!|
What do you think happens after you die?
Exactly what is happening right now, absolutely nothing.
Do you believe in heaven?
I do not.
Do you believe in hell?
See above answer.
Do you think you will be judged after you die?
And exactly who would be judgeing me, as I do not believe in a higher power or even that we have a soul.
How many people would attend your funeral?
No funerals! I just want to be cremated, than have something creative done with my ashes.
Would you rather that people cry or laugh at your funeral?
If I had to choose, I would rather they laugh, people should only remember all the great things about me, the good times, the happy memories, the sarcastic comment I would probably be uttering that moment.
What's better? A shot in the head or downing pills?
Ahem, now for my view on suicide, a poem:
Razors pain you; Rivers are damp;
Acids stain you; And drugs cause cramp.
Guns aren't lawful; Nooses give;
Gas smells awful; You might as well live
Courtesy of Dorothy Parker
What should be written on your tombstone?
I shall not have a tombstone. Or if I should happen to have one, it shall say, "Eat my Dust!" on it, or something like that!
Would you rather die childless or divorced?
One, I will never have children, evil little monkeys they are and I will never get divorced since I never plan to get married!
Do you want to die in the morning, afternoon, or night?
::Shrugs:: In the early morning hours, hopefully after a night of fun and fornicating.
If you had a million dollars to leave, who would you leave it to?
No one, I would be buried with it, bwahahaha...just kidding, I would probably leave it to my friend Lucy and Lux, they deserve it, because they are boss, to me anyways. ~_^
What kind of flowers do you want at your funeral?
No flowers, for every flower I find, I shall kill you!
On your deathbed, which moment will you most remember?
I will probably be so fucked up on various drugs and/or painkillers that rational thought of any kind will most likely be impossible. But if I am so fortunate as to still posses my mind, I will probably reminisice about all the great times I had with friends and family.
Have you ever watched someone die?
No, I am curious though.
What's the most gruesome death you can imagine?
Being Buried Alive.
How often do you think about death?
I tend to try not to think of something that is so inevitable, it is better to focus on the life you have, to enjoy it as much as possible for it can be taken away at any moment. Not the stereotypical "goth" answer eh, I can do cheesy goth if you want me to! ^_^
Is fear of dying your number one fear?
Um, hardly, Death does not frighten me, evil, mankind decimating virus's frighten me....as do the Living Dead, who would probably be the result of said mankind decimating virus.
Do you believe in reincarnation?
No, I do not believe in the existence of an astral form.
Have you ever wished someone you loved were dead?
No, only on people I disliked, or random strangers who looked at me funny, or that person who got me sick, and....::Continues on down the list.::
Do you consider life short or long?
It all really depends on your perspective, at times it feels far too short, other times you wonder if it will ever end.
Do you think you have a soul?
No, I am a rather skeptical individual, unless there is proof it exists, I tend to dismiss it.
Assisted suicide for a terminally ill person is:
Certainly, I believe that is your body and you can do whatever you want with it.
If you were cremated, where would you like your ashes?
::Shrugs:: I do not know, such a morbid question to ask, I would probably have a loved one think of something strange or unusual to do with them.
Would you choose to be immortal, if you could be?
Yes, but only if at the time when I was tired of living, that I could take my own life.
| Having lost all faith in anti-bacterial products.... 2004-08-17 22:47:18 ET
I have decided that I will kill all the people of the Earth so never may I again be cursed with being sick! Heh, just kidding, I love all of you little germ monkeys, really! So, since Sunday, I have felt seriously under the weather and since I am the biggest wuss on the planet when it comes to even feeling slightly ill, I have to make a big, overly dramatic deal about it. Those of you who do not know me, have never read my journal or any survey I have done before, I have the smallest, rather tiny, practically miniscule germ phobia, it is nothing really. So please, do not concern yourselves, just do not touch me, or breath on me, or around me, and God help you if you cough near me!! ::Shakes fist in menancing manner:: See, it is barely even noticable. So today, while I was waiting for my shift to start, sitting in the food court, nursing my bottle of Gatorade, trying to soothe my scratchy throat...am I alone in thinking that having a sore throat is the absolute worse, worse to me than even vomitting, at least that usually only lasts one miserable night, the sickest I have ever been was when I had strep throat, oh, to even think about it makes me shudder, I happened to notice a sign that said "Maximum Occupancy: Some number in the 200's...damned if I remember what bloody number! Than tonight, I happened to glance at the MSN front page and lo and behold, there was an article that said, "World Population expected to reach over 9 billion by 2050!" Wow, that is a lot of people, that sentiment coming straight from the "No Shit" files. So it got me to thinking, what do you think the Maximum Occupancy for the planet is, how many individuals do you think Mother Earth can sustain before she finally says," What's all this than, all these people, what the fuck...no bloody way!" and storms off in a fit of rage and disgust? Just curious.
| What's in a name? 2004-08-14 13:10:58 ET
Name Meaning: All Honey|
Name Origin: Greek
Number of Syllables: 3.00
More interesting facts about the name Pamela:
Lucky Number: 3
Ruling Planet: Jupiter
Primary Color: Yellow
Traits: The investigator; the scientist; the seeker. An interest in material rather than the spiritual. Ideas on religion frequently change. Has a great sense of humor. Not greatly interested in money. Very trusting, yet likes to know the "why" and the "how".
See what your name says about you at http://www.thenamesite.com/
Heh, make sure to post your answers so that I may judge wether or not it is accurate, my traits are actually relatively accurate, save for the very trusting aspect. ^_^
| How Puzzling! 2004-08-12 22:53:48 ET
Heh, I am of the thought right now that someone should buy me this: http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&category=1468&item=3832929006&rd=1|
And hey, if it actually works, all the better right...right...::Looks around, hears crickets chirping:: Oh, you know you want it, what could be better than enduring pain and pleasure beyond what is capable on this earthly plain? And you know, being skinned alive and turned into a living pile of flesh and nerves....that is fun too....um, yeah. Heh, I think on my official "List of Frivilous, Silly, and completely Unessecary Things I desire." this is at the very top!