saw the casualties last night...it was okay...traded bracelets with rick...then we gave shelley a call...i suppose the show was fun.|
saw lots of cute and ugly couples there last night...they all made me feel lonely...very lonely. got hit on by yet another skin...i am like a damn magnet for them...i don't know why and i don't like it...don't want a skinhead boyfriend...but that is all i attract for some reason. plus there are no punk guys here....well some but i am so picky and they are all in highschool. i like them young, but not that young. being lonely sucks. i can't figure out why people don't like me...maybe because i am a social handicap in regard to anyone i find interesting....ahh fuck it. maybe i am just too ugly or chubby. i hate being single...i am not used to it...i don't need a boyfriend anyway....single and lonely is good...i will deal with it...single and lonely and miserable and an unhappy me keeps other people happy so that is what i should do...fuck making myself happy...i just wish i didn't have to see all the other people in love and happy...it really depresses me. i am going to trim my hair now.